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my house got valued today, it dosent matter anymore nothing really matters. 23yrs of things will have to be sold, we are buying a boat to live on, i dont know anything about boats, but i have to learn fast because thats what we will be living on. I look around at my things and dont feel anything anymore.
I dont feel sad, dissapointed, nothing. I think i came to terms along time ago that i would have to part company with my home.
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i am diagnosed with narcolepsy well if it wasnt for cataplexy i would say i am misdiagnosed
because i have just worked out that i sleep in the day because i choose to, due to depression i think i choose to shut of from the world. all this week i have not slept in the day, as a passanger in the car i am usally sleeping within minutes well i can stay awake without to much difficulty, i have surprised myself how the mind has the ability to shut of.
I have had a couple of late nights this week that contributed to a sleepy evening last night but other than that i have stayed awake!!! yippee.
I am determined to sort out these issues i have with depression because its looking kike this is more of a problem to me than the narcolepsy, i am trying to be positive and i am trying to build my confidence on a daily basis by doing things or going places i dont feel comfortable with, they say life begins a 40 .....maybe yes .
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to change my thoughts
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Life does begin at 40!! I have been diagnosed with narcolepsy for 20 years and I am considered to be high functioning. I suffer from depression also. My thoughts are that narcolepsy and depression go hand in hand. Combination of being chronically sleep deprived (because of the lack of quality of sleep)and the chemicals misfiring in the brain would cause the depression. Just a thought.
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vonny, i'm sorry to here this why. why are you selling the house and livivg in a boat. hope things work out for ya. hugs nae'
fibonae
Ready to come live with us yet???? LOL
cheri1216
Vonny keep your most precious things and make room for them on the boat. I hope things turn out ok for you. Much love
Meredith
Barkerseggs
i am keeping my precious things,,,,,you lot are coming with me, love you all xx
vonnyzzz
You sound so sad from that post. I know what you mean with the numbness to feeling sad. That can be just as bad as feeling sad about losing things, because you feel lost for being so detatched (that's how I often feel anyway). My heart aches for you, but hopefully your new life on the boat will lead to lots of fun and excitement! And you will still have your precious things to hold on to your past life at home :)
gillianm
So sorry to hear this Vonny. I also understand the numbness... Be sure and post pictures of you on the new boat.
Marilynliz
i, too, understand the numbness. My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family.
tracy413