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Kaya1823 
1:40pm, February 20, 2009
Im so tired of all of this. Pain sickness, no sleep, no life.
OOh yeah and then my mother telling me she wont pay for my therapy any more cause im a dead loss anyways and she´s sure im drinking again (im not... and she´s living 1200 miles away so she SURE can tell). So what can i do now? Just wait until they take my daughter away from me cause i cant be there for her in any way and then - fuck it all.
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still cant update i have 12 days without abusing morph
my physical condition is getting me really down since yesterday night where the migraine and neck pain started again after having half a day without. The first half day in 4 months without. I cant even put in words how tired i am of this.
Another thing really buggin me is.. since i cant really move and just lay in bed most of the day i started to gain weight even watching out sooooo bad what i eat (ppl tell me i cant survive on what i eat) im sooo damn frustrated over looking in the mirror and see myself growing fatter and fatter and cant do a shit about it, starving myself every fuckin day.
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Dear Kaya,
It sounds like you are having a horrible life. Your mom should talk to your husband and he could reassure her that you are not drinking. You need to find a way to keep seeing your therapist. No one could go through all that without support. I've been praying for you. I don't know why it has to be so hard for you.... I don't think anyone can take your daughter away. The father is there too. So how could they?
-Sandy
Sandy91
You know, I do not really know you or your situation but Goddamn-it, I really think your mom is being to hard on you and maybe you should not talk to her for a while(i know it is easier said than done). I feel for you sister,I understand how you feel(to an extent). You ever need anything just let me know.
mamalove