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rustyc 
PEOPLE HAS BEEN SAYING I WANTED TO KILL MY SELF IN THE LAST JOURNAL THIS IS NOT TRUE MY REAL FRIENDS WHO KNOW WELL KNOW I DONT I WANT TO LIVE I DONT WANT TO DIE I DONT WANT TO DIE FROM CANCER I DONT KNOW WHO STARTED THIS THIS FROM SOME OTHER GROUP I HEARD AND THEY DONT EVEN KNOW ME AND WISH THEY WOULDNT STARTED THINGS I WANT LIVE NOT DIE I WAS TELLING MY FRIENDS I WOULD MISS THEM AND FOR THEM NOT TO MISS ME TO MUCH IF SOMETHING WAS TO HAPPEN TO ME SO I THANK WHO EVER STARTED ALL OF THIS I'M SICK ENOUCH TO TALK AND WRITE BUT TO PUT UP WITH IS CRAZY AND CHILD LIKE AND NOT READING ANYTHING RIGHT AND JUST TRYING READING BETWEEN THE LINES SO I WOULD THANK YOU IF YOU WOULD STAY IN YOUR OWN GROUP UNLESS YOU WANT TO BE FRIENDS OR HAVE GOOD THINGS TO SAY ABOUT ME MY TRUE FRIENDS REALLY KNOW ME AND NEVER THOUGHT THAT AT ALL SO PEOPLE STOP SPEADING RUMORS ABOUT ME UNLESS YOU KNOW ME PLZZZZZZZZZZZ I DONT DO THAT TO PEOPLE AND ALWAYS NICE TO PEOPLE AND STILL AM NICE I JUST WANTED WHO EVER DID THIS TO KNOW THAT YOU LIED ON ME AND I NEVER ONCE SAID I WAS GOING TO KILL MY SELF I WANT TO LIVE AND DONT WANT CANCER TO KILL ME I TALK TO YOU WHO DID THIS AND I HELP YOU FEEL BAD IF ITS ONE OR TWO OR MORE TAKE CARE OF YOUR OWN SELF OK AND I DONT NEED FRIENDS LIKE THAT AND IF MY FRIENDS BACK ME NOW AND THINK I'M RIGHT PLZZZZZZZZZZZ LET ME KNOW AND TELL ME THE PERSON OR PERSONS SO I CAN TALK TO THEM AND PRAY FOR THEM ..............HUGSSSSS RUSTY
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Hey babe, you have more strentgh then anyone i know. You have battled so much and I am proud to call u my friend! If anyone says different, screw them! I love you!!!
Erikalee3
Don't worry Rusty, your true friends know what you meant.
Hugs,
Ellie x
smartygirl2
THANKS YOU ALL YOU ARE MY TRUE FIENDS AND I CARE ALOT ABOUT YOU AND YOU MEAN ALOT TO ME AND I' FIGHTING EVERYDAY TO STAY ALIVE AND LIVE I DONT WANT TO DIE AND YOU MY FRIENDS HELP ME ALOT AND I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH !!!!!!!!!!!!
rustyc
We understand Rusty. The person from the other board was just concerned and nothing more. It was a misunderstanding and I hope you aren't upset. I understand you now and wish you the best in life. Look at it this way...you met some new people from being misunderstood. Thank you for reaching out to support me today. Good luck in this fight my friend.
Rman
Hey Rusty! Im sorry you felt you had to delete your journal to your friends. You have a big heart and I know all the people who know you love you very much. I hope that you are feeling better today, now what can we do it put a smile on your face? :)
Redphish
I agree with Rman that it was a misunderstanding. I'm glad you're okay and it's good to have you as a new friend.
veeachjay
Well, sucks to all the people who seem to have an opinion on you, but don't even know you. You have so much love from your true friends on here Rusty, and especially from me homes. Know that you are in my prayers nightly and I am always thinking of you. GOD BLESS HOMIE, ONE LOVE ~SHANER
Shaner
Yes, like Rman stated it was all a big misunderstanding, but it was done out of concern ...try not to be offended as they meant well... Thank you for clarifying it for us and I honestly hope all the best for you. Hang in there Rusty...Hugs
Susmar
I understood what you meant. I didn't even know their was other people saying that. That is so stuipd of them for thinking that before even talking to you about it. I think that you are a great dear friend to me and I hope that you feel the same about me. I really enjoy talking to you. You got enough fight in you for me and you LOL. Well talk to you later. Lots of LOve and Big Huggs Jenn
Jenn2009
AWWW I am sorry Rusty. I can't believe someone would say such a thing.
Guineth
AWWW I am sorry Rusty. I can't believe someone would say such a thing.
Guineth
thanks to all my friends i love you all and you know i'm the type of person who cares about all my friends and would do anything for them and am fighting hard everyday to save alive why would i want to die and give up people who are not my friends and want to be my friends talk to me first i will do anything for you and care about you more than i do my self and have a big heart for everyone and love everyone and i not a bad person at all and like to talk and help people out if i can no matter what my problem is so love you all.............RUSTY
rustyc
Oh hun....I hate that people are saying that. You are rite in saying that they dont know you. You are a fighter. I am always praying for you and if you ever need me you can call or message me. I love ya sweets!!!! Keep fighting! Love ya hun!
DanieLou
Hey Rusty. I do think this was all a big misunderstanding. I met you because of it though and I might not have had that chance if it hadn't have happened the way it did. It is all okay now. Nobody is trying to hurt you. I know where you are coming from because I think we are a lot alike. You are the best honey!!
ZanyBeeper
(((Rusty)) Im so sorry this happened to you, its sad sometimes how people can say things that they dont know whats truely going on, maybe sweetie it was just a misunderstanding. Anyone that knows you knows how special and how sweet you truely are and how you are truely dealing with so much with cancer. Please dont worry yourself over anything, Im sure it was just a misunderstanding and know that we love you very much and are all praying for you with all we got. Your a true sweetheart and Im so proud to have you as my friend, angel hugs xxx
SilentAngel
THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO SAID ALL THESE NIC THINGS TO ME I CARE ALOT ABOUT ALL OF YOU AND WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR YOU AND BE A BEST FRIEND TO YOU AND TALK AND ANYTHING YOU ASK I PUT YOU ALL FIRST BEFORE ME ITS SEEM LIKE EVERYDAY I'M GETTING WEAK AND WEAK BUT I'M STILL FIGHTING AND TRY TO MAKE IT THE LORD IS HELPING ME THE DOCTOR SAID HE DIDNT KNOW HOW I MADE IT THIS FAR MY TIME SHOULD HAVE BEEN UP I TOLD HIM I HAVE GOD AND MY FRIENDS ON MY SIDE PRAYING FOR ME AND THATS HOW I LOVE TO TALK TO YOU GUYS BEFORE ITS TO LATE I WILL MISS ALL OF YOU SO MUCH SO LETS TALK WHILE WE CAN AND I;M NOT MAD AT NO ONE I;M NOT LIKE THAT YOU ALL SHOULD NO .......LOVE YOU ALL AND HUGSSSSSSSSSSS.......RUSTY
rustyc
Its not fair - you are one of the niceness - caring people ever to come into my life, you have alway understood me and tried to help l love you so very much sweetie, l pray for your happiness your health and even your parents - its not fair. Just as yourself I amoung many don`t want the time to come that you aren`t around. I can`t even imagon this time - yet you are always thought of as the person l found online behind the bushers lol you are so kind - positive - alway placing other before yourself and the stenght that one could have wow you have it hunny - you say hear the prayes of other have brought you time - what about your stenght you have never given up - l have spoken to you at your worst and you have continused fighting.
To those dam people that start rumos like the ones moment earlyer in rusty jounral - you need to do you homework before start another rumos - sorry this has angred me very much how dare you this wonderful loving person has fought so hard for so long it is fair - and l can tell you now rusty is doulbe the person you will ever be and has gone throught so much my heart bloody for him.
Jane7146
THANK YOU SO MUCH DEAR FRIENDS I CARE SO MUCH ABOUT YOU ALL AND WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR YOU AND WOULD DO IT BEORE MYSELF AND I LOVE EVERYONE AND CARE SO MUCH FOR OTHERS AND THATS JUST ME YOU ALL SAID SO MUCH YOU MAKE ME CRY AND I NEVER FELT LOVE LIKE THIS IN MY LIFE AND CARED ABOUT TO EACH ABD EVERYONE OF YOU I WILL PRAY FOR YOU THAT GOD WILL HELP YOU AND GIVE YOU WANT YOU NEED IN LIFE AND TO BE HAPPY AND LIVE LIFE AND WHEN I GONE I WILL ALWAYS BE AROUND IN SPRIT AND HOPE YOU WILL REMEMBER ME AND LOVE YOU ALL...........RUSTY
rustyc
I AM GLAD TO HEAR THAT YOU DON'T WANT TO DIE. YOU SEEM LIKE A VERY NICE PERSON AND THE WORLD NEEDS PEOPLE LIKE YOU.
butterflys
Good beans nothing like kicking a guy when he is down!! I do not know you, but you keep fighting!! Ignore the rumor mill folks, they just dont have anything better to do withtheir time.
foxie77