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WELL THIS THE THIRD ONE AND I HAVE STILL HAVE THINGS TO SAY I GUESS I HAVE A LOT ON MY MIND I CAN WRITE BUT CANT TALK TO PEOPLE ABOUT THIS WAY WAY I WONT BORE NO ONE AND EVERYONE CAN READ AAND GET THERE OWN MESSAGE OUT IT FEELING A LITTLE BETTER TODAY JUST HURTING DO I CAN GET BY IT I ALWAYS DO EVERYDAY I FIND THE FAITH AND MAKE IT I JUST DONT WANT TO LAY DOWN AND DIE LIKE BEFORE A REAL MAN DOESNT DO THAT AND I WANT TO LIVE WHY I CAN AND SOME FUN AND WISH I COULD FIND ME A GIRLFIREND TO SHARE MY LIFE WITH AND HAVE FUN ABD TRAVEL AND NOT DO IT ALONE I GET SO TIRED OF BEING ALONE YES I HAVE MY FRIENDS ON HERE BUT I NEED THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE TOO BUT I AFRAID THEY READ WHAT I HAVE AND THEY WANT TO RUN OR DONT WHAT TO GET INVOLVED SO THEY DONT GRT HURT I GUESS BUT I NEED LOVE TOO AND HOPE IT COMES SOME DAY BEFORE I LEAVE THIS EARTH IF IT IS THE LORDS WILL HE WILL FIND ME SOMEONE I STILL STAY SCARED WHEN I GO TO BED AFRAID I'M NOT GOING TO WAKE THEY I THINK I GOING TO BETTER PLACES BUT I WILL MISS ALL MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS RIGHT NOW MY FRIENDS ON HERE THAT TALK TO ME KEEP ME GOING AND FIGHING AND I NEED THAT AND I LIKE TO TALK BUT DONT LIKE TO RUN MY FRIENDS OF AND KEEP THEM AROUND SO IF YOU WANT TO TALK AND I'M ON I WILL TALK TO YOU JUST ASK ME I WONT SAY NO I HAVE NEVER SAID NO TO ANYONE THATS JUST ME I CARE ABOUT EVERYONE AND I WANT PEOPLE TO CARE ABOUT ME OR ALEAST TALK TO ME AND MAYBE THEN YOU WILL GET TO KNOW ME BETTER I',M A GOOD GUY AND CARING AND CAN LISTEN AND YOU CAN VENT ON ME I DONT CARE AS LONG AS WE TALK AND I HAVE COMPANY I HAVE BEING BORED AND HER ALL BY MY SELF NOT JUST BRAGGING I;M ONE OF THE NICEST GUYS YOU WILL MEET AND WILL BE A FRIEND FOR LIFE AND DO ANYTHING FOR YOU IF YOU ASK AND NEVER ASK YOU FOR NOTHING SO IF ANYONE IS SINGLE AND LIKES TO TALK I WILL TALK TO YOU AND MAYBE WE MIGHT BE GOOD FOR EACH OTHER IF NOT WE CAN BE FRIENDS WELL WRITE MORE LATER I HAVE ALOT IN MY MIND SORRY YOU HAVE TO READ LONG LETTERS I 'M JUST LET YOU KNOW ABOUT ME AND HOW I CARE AND YOU MY FRIENDS AND EVERYONE........................RUSTY
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Rusty, you are great and remember it! Re-read my comment on your part one my friends! Trev
FragileMentality
hi rusty, i am sad that you are feeling so sad and alone,i hate to think of you feeling like this,i so wish i could do something to help you to feel better,you have enough to cope with as it is,remember you can tell me anything you like i will always be here for you.love and hugs,helen.
witchnell
i know his was a while ago that you wrote this but you never have to say sorry for long journals or think you are going to bore us. i have been on this site now for 3 yrs any true friend on here will never care how long and will never get bored. we are all on here for support and some of us for many reasons so there are always long journal entries somewhere. i also give you credit for wanting someone to love i am the opposite i don't care about love anymore . i just wish i was alone so when and if the big d-day comes i wouldn't leave anyone behind to get hurt.. i hope you find the special one that you are meant to be with, but you are going to have to not be afraid of telling them what is wrong with you. if they turn you down because it then you know that it isn't meant to be . plus you don't want to not tell them and invest heart mind and soul into a relationship and find out the person won't stay with you because of your health. someone thats going to truly love you with their heart mind and soul won't care. they will just care about you. hold your head up and never give up in finding your true love!
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