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rustyc 
WELL THIS IS PART TWO AND I HAVE SOME MORE TO SAY I HAVE SOME GOOD FRIENDS ON HERE THAT I CARE ALOT ABOUT AND THEY CARE ABOUT ME TOO AND I CARE ABOUT EVERYONE AND I NEVER HATE ANYBODY I DONT KNOW THE WORD I WAS DONE WRONG BEFORE AND WAS TREATED WRONG BEFORE AND I STILL FORGIVE THE PEOPLE WHO DID THIS THINGS TO ME BECAUSE I HAVE A BIG HEART AND WAS ALWAYS A CARING PERSON AND IF I FALL IN LOVE WITH A GIRL I FALL HARD AND THEY HAVE MY FULL HEART AND I TREAT THEM RIGHT BUT SOME PEOPLE DONT BELIEVE IN THAT SOME PEOPLE GET JOY OUT OF HURTING SOMEONE AND I CANT UNDERSTAND WAY AND I KNOW I HURT PEOPLE TO AND DONT MEAN TOO BECAUSE MY BIPOLAR AND AND CANCER SOMETIMES IT GETS ME SO UPSET AND TAKE IT OUT ON THE WRONG PEOPLE THE ONES I CARE ABOUT AND DONT MEAN TO I REALLY DONT ALOT OF TIMES I TAKE IT OUT ON ME I WISH THERE WAS A MIRACLE DRUG TO HELP EVERYONE AND PEOPLE COULD BE NICE AND CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER I DO BUT WHEN MY BIPOLAR HAPPENS ITS NOT ME ITS ME BUT I CANT CONTROL IT I WAS I COULD I TAKE MEDS FOR IT THEY WORK SOME TIME BUT SOMETIME NOT I TRY TO DO THINGS SO IT WONT HAPPEN MAYBE SINCE THE WEATHER IS PRETTY I CAN GET OUT MORE AND DO THINGS RIGHT KNOW I COACH A LITTLE LEAGUE BASEBALL TEAM AND IT HELPS ME ALOT AND I LOVE KIDS AND HELPING THEM BECAUSE WHEN I WAS A KID MY PARNETS DIDNT LIKE SPORTS AND I PLAYED EVERYTHING IN SCHOOL I LOVE SPORTS SO THAT WAY I LOVE TO HELP KIDS I DONT WANT THEM TO BE THE WAY I WAS AND IT MAKES THEM HAPPY AND MAKES ME HAPPY TO WATCH THEM ENJOY IT AND TAKES ME BACK SOME TIMES WHEN LIFE WAS SIMPLE BEING A KID AND NO WORRIES AND JUST HAVING FUN THEN WHEN YOU GROW UP YOU HAVE SO MUCH THINGS YOU HAVE TO DO TO LIVE AND MAKE IT ON YOUR OWN IF YOUR WONDERING WHY I'M WRITING THIS TO LET YOU KNOW THINGS ABOUT ME IF I GO SOON I DONT WANT TO BY GOD HAS HIS OWN PLAN AND MAYBE MY FRIENDS CAN LOOK BACK AND SEE I WASNT THAT BAD AT ALL YOU JUST GOT TO GET TO KNOW ME AND YOU WILL FIND OUT DONT JUDGE MY OUTSIDE LOOK WHAT INSIDE OF ME CARING LOVING AND UNDERSTANDING AND WANT TO HELP PEOPLE AND BE FRIENDS IS ALL AND YOU CAN BE MY FRIEND MY MOM TOLD ME THE OTHER DAY I WAS THE GRESTEST KID GROWING UP NEVER CAUSING HER OR MY DAD ANY TROUBLE AT ALL OR BEING IN TROUBLE AND SHE DIDNT HAVE TO WORRY OVER ME WHEN I WENT OUT BUT WHAT IT WAS I WAS JUST BEING ME AND OTHER PEOPLE CAN DO IT TO WELL WRITE MORE LATER OK MY MOM ALWAYS SAID I COULD WRITE A BOOK THINGS JUST COME TO ME HEAD AND I WRITE THEM ITS EASY FOR ME I GUESS I GUESS GOD GAVE IT TO ME TO MAKE UP FOR EVERYTHING ELSE LOVE YOU ALL........................
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rusty i always knew you are a wonderfull person ,a good and kind man,any lady to fall for you would be so lucky,you keep saying about your good friends on here,well all your good friends would say the same about you,i feel so lucky to have found you and have you for a friend,my only regret is that i cannot get to see you for real,i hope you are around for a very long time yet,love and hugs my friend,helen.
witchnell
Good morning Rusty, I think I would have to agree with Helen when she said that all your good friends feel the same about you. You are a special person Rusty! Take care hun and have a great day!
Talk to you soon.
Kimberly4
First things first Rusty, you are a great guy for even trying to forgive the people that have hurt you. That takes a lot of heart bro, it really does. You should be proud of yourself for that. You are such a dope guy and I really value our friendship. Those who know who you are on the inside, know that you have a genuine and kind heart and never, I mean, NEVER intentionally hurt people. That's part of being a human being, you make mistakes and hurt people and get hurt, but you gotta keep pushing homie. You are doing that. What if Jesus had quit carrying the cross up the hill to spill His blood to free all of us? We wouldn't even be here. You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for homie. One more note: I am very proud to call you one of my best friends, even if we do live far away from each other. One love Rusty, you are my homie for life, believe that.
God Bless homes.
Shaner
Hi Rusty,
I know you have a good heart and you are a kind person....
I wish you weren't going through such a hard time.
With everything you are going through....you still think of others.
Love & Hugs to you, my friend.
smartygirl2
your a better person then i . i have had alot of wrong done to me and i have not forgotten or forgave the ones that have done me wrong. i don't have bi-polar but i had a best friend in high school that had it. we were best friend for 5 yrs and i know how hard it is to live with it and how it affected her and the people around you. if it wasn't because of it i think we would still be best friends but she choose to not be my friend anymore because i wasn't any fun she said . that was because i was always there to try to keep her from doing things she might regret. i thought that s what a good friend dose but she didn't think so. i mis my friend and wish we could be together and i have tried but she turns me down every time. i am with you on wishing everyone would treat every other person no matter what with the respect they deserve. maybe then there wouldn't be any more bad stuff between people out there. i know it not the same as having people right there that you can touch and fell but we are here for you and there for you will never be alone and always have someone to talk to. HUG HUG HUG!
butterflys
thanks everyone for the comments i feel different now and know wont meet that special someone because i dont want to hurt them to and just be alone and have no one to to cry over me and it would be much easyer thanks alot you are true friends ..................
rustyc