chellelee's Journal

I'm to a point where I'm done, finished, just ready to quit.  I don't care about what I eat any more, how much or how little I exercise or anything.  I just don't give a shit anymore.  I am tired of busting my ass to get no where.  I don't give a damn about looking or feeling good any fucking more!  I am so pissed off right now.  I worked my ass off since november 20th, exercising and eating no less than what feels like a fucking rabbit to go to the doctor and find out I've lost 2 fucking pounds!  Fuck that! I'm talking like pure trash right now, but I cannot help it.  It's how I fucking feel.  I don't even care anymore, really. I cannot believe that is all I lost if I even really fucking lost it.  It was probably the difference in a glass of water I pissed out before getting on the scale.  Fuck it.  I guess this is just how my life is going to be.