Trying to Maintain My Composure
December 10, 2008 4:19pm
I'm trying to maintain my composure.......I am feeling anxious, unwanted, abandoned, and in panic mode. I spoke to my boyfriend last night …
boricua77 
9:52am, December 12, 2008
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About Me
boricua77
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About Me
Born in San Juan, Puerto Rico but raised all over the world due to my father joining the military. I am very proud of my Puerto Rican heritage.
Born in San Juan, Puerto Rico but raised all over the world due to my father joining the military. I am very proud of my Puerto Rican heritage.
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Interests
Dogs, dog showing, dog training, cooking, reading, watching History Channel
Dogs, dog showing, dog training, cooking, reading, watching History Channel
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Journal
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Not Doing So Great Today......
December 9, 2008 9:05am
I know that I am allowing my boyfriend to have this much power over me at the moment. Lately, my cell phone has been acting up and …
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It's Snowing Today...
December 6, 2008 6:35pm
It's snowing and I hate snow!! I swear I have that seasonal affective disorder....winter time and cold weather in general is enough to …
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Looking at things Objectively....
December 3, 2008 11:47am
I try to look at myself and the decisions I make objectively. On Thanksgiving I brought my boyfriend to my mother's house to eat dinner …
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Feeling Good Today
December 1, 2008 9:06pm
I feel good today. Last night I saw my boyfriend and we spent the entire day together. We got lunch together, watched football all day …
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Hug
Do you think hes open to discussing everything? My fiance... he never gets mad at anything. If hes upset. he says that he is upset.. but his voice is calm.. and he never puts me down. If he getse upset.. I know he has good reason.. because it takes a lot to get him even upset...
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Snowman
We all have our relapses... Mine happened last night. I hate those pervasive feelings of low self worth....
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Prayer
Its is like the movie, "Prince of Egypt" where the priest says to him, "Jethro A single thread in a tapestry Through its color brightly shine Can never see its purpose In the pattern of the grand design And the stone that sits on the very top Of the mountain's mighty face Does it think it's more important Than the stones that form the base? So how can you see what your life is worth Or where your value lies? You can never see through the eyes of man You must look at your life Look at your life through heaven's eyes Lai-la-lai... A lake of gold in the desert sand Is less than a cool fresh spring And to one lost sheep, a shepherd boy Is greater than the richest king If a man lose ev'rything he owns Has he truly lost his worth? Or is it the beginning Of a new and brighter birth? So how do you measure the worth of a man In wealth or strength or size? In how much he gained or how much he gave? The answer will come The answer will come to him who tries To look at his life through heaven's eyes And that's why we share all we have with you Though there's little to be found When all you've got is nothing There's a lot to go around No life can escape being blown about By the winds of change and chance And though you never know all the steps You must learn to join the dance You must learn to join the dance Lai-la-lai... So how do you judge what a man is worth By what he builds or buys? You can never see with your eyes on earth Look through heaven's eyes Look at your life Look at your life Look at your life through heaven's eyes"
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I started reading part of your life story that you had posted in the fear of abandonment group and I had to stop and give you a hug before continuing on to read. *hugs* You ARE a strong women.
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I'm gonna try to keep sharing and hope it works. I sure wish I could go from rock bottom in self worth to a somewhat healthy level. My mind works against me.
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Support Groups
Close Codependency
I grew up in a volatile household where my parents faught constantly. My mother abused me emotionally, verbally & physically. Often times she showed blatant preference to my older brother.
Treatments
- Reading Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
- It works when you talk to people who speak the same language as you. If you talk to people who don't understand codependency, it is frustrating.
- \"Codependent No More\" Working / Worked
- Love that book!!! It's my bible!
Close Financial Challenges
I have been racking up credit card debt. I realize I have no control.
Treatments
- Cut Up Credit Cards Not Working
- It works for a little while but then the credit card company send me those convenience checks....
- Debt Consolidation Somewhat Helpful
- I usually will rack up the cards again after a while.
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