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Vanity 
6:15pm, August 9, 2009
I just feel... I dunno de-motivated. Everything that mattered to me - getting an amazing degree, securing a great graduate job - just don't feel as passionate about. I can't make myself care. I even do things to sabotage myself it would seem.
E.g - I want to get healthy, but then over-eat.
- I want to saty sober to clear my head - I go out and get drunk all night
- I tell myself I am going to be tidy to improve my environment - I remain extremely, almost deliberately messy
- I say that I am going to work hard at uni - I get too scared to go to my lectures.
I can't take it anymore!
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Dear Vanity, this sounds like a classic case of a depressive mood.......yeah, you feel down, nothing appeals to you.....it's all part of it! Try to remember that you're just going through this right now until your mood changes for the better. It is what it is! Make sure you're taking your meds, giving yourself "relax" time and cut yourself a break!! You've been through a lot lately,...and now your body/mind is saying....I need to slow down for a minute and exhale!!! Love yourself by giving yourself a little slack. From me to you: ((((((HUGSSS))))))!!!
I'm here if ya want/need to talk...I CARE ABOUT YOU!!! love, "Fire" xoxo
fireinmydesire4life
....and when the bad mood passes, THEN you can sit yourself down and start working on the things that you really wanted to improve on.......that's what I meant.... you can do it....it just takes time and effort and focusing on your goals.
love, "Fire"
fireinmydesire4life