Journal Entry for December 17, 2008
December 17, 2008 11:59pm
patrickdlt
12:26am, December 18, 2008
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About Me
patrickdlt
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About Me
Well I guess this is one of the few places you don’t have to sugar coat stuff, its hard for me. I am a people person. You ask me how I am and I will always so good. My God that is such a lie. I am trebly depressed, suffer from extreme anxiety, I have ADHD which drives everything else and last but not least I am an addict. Was clean for over 8 months after a sever addiction problem with pills that lasted over 2 years, I thank God everyday that I am alive and not in jail. I was weak I did something I promised my self I would ever do again. That was pop a pill, and I did. My girl friend has broken up with my, my friends have turned their back and my family thinks I am just weak, no I am an addict. I have no one to turn to, I am all alone. I know that life is a blessing, but why can it something I would like to just end. I am so tired. Just so tired.
Well I guess this is one of the few places you don’t have to sugar coat stuff, its hard for me. I am a people person. You ask me how I am and I will always so good. My God that is such a lie. I am trebly depressed, suffer from extreme anxiety, I have ADHD which drives everything else and last but not least I am an addict. Was clean for over 8 months after a sever addiction problem with pills that lasted over 2 years, I thank God everyday that I am alive and not in jail. I was weak I did something
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Interests
Staying clean and trying to find sobriety, along with a reason to keep fighting the demons that wont let go of me.
Staying clean and trying to find sobriety, along with a reason to keep fighting the demons that wont
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What To Do
December 17, 2008 11:55pm
I fell of the wagon after 8 months and 15 days. I am getting no support. People act like I should have been able not to do it. They …
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Fell Off the Wagon
December 16, 2008 7:00pm
8 months 15 days clean and I blew it.
Addiction is a monster that is always right there waiting for you to be weak. Any when you are it …
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Moment of Peace
how are u
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your right your not weak you are an addict and this is when you need all of those people the most...I'm here if you need anything.. keep the strength.
Santa
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! I hope u are doing better.
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thanks, i think. please don't use me to put your own problems down though. everyone has their own problems and they really can't be compared to someone else's.
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Support Groups
Close Prescription Drug Abuse
Was using 7 Norco, 4 Soma and 2 Valium a day. Pot for 20 yrs. Detoxed on my own, do help from a doctor. I visted hell, but it had to be done. Tomorrow 11/17/2008 I am clean 8 months. Realizing how much of my life I lost, I cant recall the events a year ago. I was too high. Best thing I have ever done. My issue is I am clean, but far from sober. Still dealing with the adjustments. I have forgoten who I am, its effected my socail skills and other social interactions. Starting NA tomorrow,
Treatments
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- Starting now
Close Chronic Pain
I was hooked on Norco (7 daily), Soma (4 daily) and valium (2 daily), and pot (20 years). My pain now is managed with Tramdol, I am lucky it helps and no side effects. I used Methadone to get off pills, I think it double the pain of withdraws. Detoxed on my own. I saw hell. Seizures, hallucinations, insomnia, aches, just to say a few. I am here to help anyone that wants to quit or stay sober. Together we all can do it!
Treatments
- Flexeril Working / Worked
- 4 Soma a day habit, clean 6 months. Dont know if it helped, I was using a combo of pills.
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- Got hooked 7 Norco a day, clean 6 months. Dont know if it helped, I was using a combo of pills.
- Marijuana Working / Worked
- Helped with ADHD. I have to take medication now, I would rather just get high. I smoked for 20 years. Sober 7 months.
- Methadone Working / Worked
- Distroyed me.
- Valium Working / Worked
- 20 mg a day habit clean 6 months. Dont know if it helped I was using a combo of pills.
Open Depression
patrickdlt hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Anxiety
patrickdlt hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open ADHD / ADD
patrickdlt hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Loneliness
patrickdlt hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Abstinence & Celibacy
patrickdlt hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Codependency
patrickdlt hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Marijuana Addiction & Recovery
Addict for 20 years, all day long. Sober since 3/17/09. Helped with ADHD and chronic pain.
Treatments
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- Just starting.
Open Breakups & Divorce
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