cursedsoul2009

Open Bullying

i get bullied at school for being emo and i get made fun of saying that i cut myself and i don't it hurts me that people think all emo kids cut its not the truth and we aren't depressed all the time. its idiots like that that make us that way.

Open Anger Management

I have serious anger issues at the kids and teachers at my school and its like they are making fun of me. I'm angry at my aunt because she calls me a freak of nature. it hurts badly and it angers me.

Open Gay & Lesbian Teens

I came out of the closet when i was 13 years old and ever since then i've been made fun of being a lesbian but it doesn't bother me anymore i'm proud of who i'am.

Open Shyness

I'm very shy and not having alot of friends its hard too come out of my shell and show people who i really am. Meeting new people and knowing that i'll eventually will get hurt causes me too hide.But i don't want too be alone anymore.

Treatments

Pets Working / Worked

My dog shiloh is a husky and he is just the sweetest dog on the planet and he is very protective of me. i love shiloh.

Singing Working / Worked

i'm in a band and it helps when i;m singing because just for a few hours i can be someone else. and it helps me come out of my shell.

Open Depression - Teen

I've been depressed since my best friend luke died from suicide he was someone i cared about alot and when he killed himself i became inconsolable and rebellious against people trying too help me. But i think I've been this way since my parents died.

Treatments

Lexapro Working / Worked

it does help with the feeling i have

Music Working / Worked

definitely eases the sadness

Writing Working / Worked

always writing lyrics and my feelings and putting them into music helps

Open Rape

I was raped by my best friend behind the school one day after school activities and i have never been the same since. I didn't want him too rape him and he did because i rejected him.I told him i didn't like guys and he forced himself on me twice. I stay far away from guys because when i see them it triggers disgust and hate but most of all fear.

Treatments

Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked

it helps too talk too others

Rape Counseling Working / Worked

i went but it didnt ease the dirtiness and shame i felt.,

Open Lesbian Relationship Challenges

I lost my girlfriend because she told me that i was too closeted and i couldn't love her openly enough. But that was a lie she was fooling around behind me back with my best friend and she was the one that wanted me too hide our relationship because she was ashamed of being gay. that hurt.

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

I was abused for so long by my uncle and i felt like i was never good enough i tried and he wouldn't acknowledge me he would hit me and call me stupid and worthless.My aunt tried so many times too stop him. twice he almost killed me and 5 times he sent me too the hospital with broken bones and a shattered soul. I'm lucky i survived.Then my girlfriend used too hit me and call me her bitch and tell me i was only good for sex and doing stuff for her like a servant. I decided too live my life.

Treatments

Music Working / Worked

its the only thing that helps me.

Open Self-Injury

I do cut all the time now. It used too be a one day thing but then things became so stressed out for me that i eventually started cutting more and sinking into a place that was dark and that i was safe. I felt numb and safe from the rape and physical abuse.

Treatments

Outpatient Treatment Program Working / Worked

after i gout out of the hospital i've been going too the outpatient treatment program and it does help in a way.

Open Phobia
Type: Social Phobia

I'm scared of socializing with other people it freaks me out and i start having panic attacks and i run off and my heart pounds and i just can't take socializing with people. being in the house under my aunts wing for so long i never got too socialize with people and it turned into a phobia.

Treatments

Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked

it helps too hear others feelings and know that i'm not the only one who is afraid of losing my mind and getting hurt.

Open Loneliness

I've given up everything that ever mean't anything too me because i thought in doing that i would finally be accepted for who i was. I guess i was wrong

Open Prescription Drug Abuse

I started drugs 2 years after my parents died because i felt such pain and i felt alone and the xanax and the valium and the vicodin seemed too take away that pain i felt numb and i didn't think about my parents at all. I then started smoking weed mixed with the pills i was taking and i admit now that was the most stupidest thing i have ever done. I was at a party and i literally blacked out. I had my stomach pumped and my aunt sent me too a hospital where i was detoxed..

Treatments

Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked

i've been going for 3 months and i've been trying my best.

Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depression

I was diagnosed with depression at the age of 13 after i was bullied and treated like crap by people it hurt and i just became so sad and withdrawn that i started too cut.

Treatments

Lexapro Working / Worked

its been working ok

Open Eating Disorders
Type: Bulimia

I'm bulimic have been since my parents died. I'm afraid that I will become fat and I don't want that.I get teased because I'm too thin.I eat then throw up I can't keep anything down. I have been going too therapy because of it and it is helping some but not all the time. I'm taking one step at a time towards being normal again and eating like everyone else does but being careful about it. I just don't know if I can do it right now.

Treatments

Group Therapy Working / Worked

after i got out of the treatment center i spent time going too therapy and talking too others who had the same problem as me dealing with fears of becoming fat and low self-esteem and it helped in a way.

Residential Treatment Center Working / Worked

My aunt put me in a treatment center where the counselor helped put me on a schedule and a special diet where the monitored me and gave me small portions at a time too eat.But it was a good thing for me.