MsCowgirl's Journal

     I need to respond to quite a few hugs and messages, so I have to apologise if someone hasn't heard back from me just yet. I will catch up soon, hopefully. I'm smack-bang in the middle of a big flare, my whole body hurts and I'm finding myself trying to push to the back of my mind those thoughts of disability, immobility, fragility and spasticity. I'm walking like a robot, stiff from the head down - just call me "Metal-Mickey", and my neck/upper back is really giving me grief. The spasm was so severe last night it felt like I was pinned under a vehicle, with a huge pressure bearing down on the nape of my neck. Man, I try and ignore a certain level of pain but this one really grabs my attention! 

It's been a week now, I think I need to call my rheumy tomorrow and eek, maybe have to go back on Prednisolone. I went to the Dawn Service and even though it was only a few hours of time, I could hardly keep myself standing by the time I got home; and I'm sooooooooo tired. I need my Humira to turn up, only 2 days to go now before it arrives. My hip and my foot want to give out too, a bit like Liquid Steel trying to set inside your body. And to think, here we are today worrying about the world-wide spread of Swine Flu - when this flare was triggered by having a Flu Vaccine that does not include that particular strain anyway.

But all is OK, Lilly my young cat, who is fluffing up now winter is approaching, has just snuggled up on her cusihon right by me and is settling in for the night. I'll call it quits too, this update has already taken me an hour to write, sooooooooo tired. Take care everyone.