dihenry's Journal

3rd time this YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!  Growl!!!

Doc K put me in the hospital again.  it sucks big time!  My stomach still feels like its gonna turn in 5 different directions.  I am still on the chicken noodle soup diet...  even though doctors have been encouraging me to slowly encorporate normal food back in the diet...  FAIL!

I am scared.  I know I could gradually work my way back up if I would quit having flare ups and all these miscelaneous crap going on.  I dont want to leave school either.  I feel like my health has spiraled out of control.  If I leave school its definitely against my will.

They are talking about assisted living for me...  SCARY!!!!!!!!!!!

So they are planning for the rehab unit again and the whole nine.  I want to return to my aparrtment and just live.

one positive thing is that they gave me steroids this time around and my crazy muscle spasms in my legs are improving... slowly...  I think...  in between hot flashy symptoms....

I want a normal life!  I want to get that masters degree!  I want to walk and maybe skate again...  I want I want I want....  

I think I have been patient....  I have tried to communicate my symptoms to my doctors and not sound overly whiny unless its really affecting me....  Patience is wearing thin though...

I have to believe that things will shake themselves out eventually...  Thats the way that fate works right???  I thought so anyway...  we will see..