dolph1n's Journal

well i feel g8 really things are going well for the first time in my life since i first got unwell at the age of 17.  i am hopeing to get into nursing next year fingers crossed.  i am back at work after getting out of hospital which was rally hard but when i thought i couldnt go on the nurses up there were out of this world and i want to be like that and i relised that cutting is just a part of what i do and i might be doing it for a bit longer. i no its not healthy but i dont feel like shit when i do it. as it is part of me that i just cant change and i think that was a big step for me i relised why feel guilty about something that i enjoy doing.  mybe one day i will stop but at this time i am happy and enjoying things. the sun is out here right now so i am going to have a smoke outside in it. To all my friends that cut i think if you relise there are some things we have to do to get by be it cutting, smoking drugs and alsorts of other things then you might not be so hard on yourself and life might get a little easier. i have gone 4 weeks without cutting which is better than g8 4 me.