Jaxiepoo's Journal

So, im pissed off right now, cuz i just wrote a big entry and it all got deleted, so im gonna try again. So, i hate myself becuase i overreact at everything, mainly the littlest stupidest things that shouldnt bother me. i tend to act like a child when i like someone, and its pathetic. i literally beat the shit outta me, like i punch myself so hard that I cant breath cuz i get so pissed off at myself. and i havent cut for 3 years, i try but it doesnt please me or interest me anymore at all. Its just, i can be really happy, and see one little thing, and my whole life just droops. i just dont understand me, i hate how my mind works, and i get so upset like its the end of the world, but im starting to get better at hiding it. its kinda like, when a little girl gets a crush on a rly cute guy thats obviously wayy too old for her, and she gets crushed when he rejects her,.i know that sounds stupid, but hey its me saying it, so who would disagree with me... Im sorry. im usuauly an awesome lets be happy no drama kind of girl. i always want to help everyone and do everything, but for some reason, i can never come to peaceful terms with myself and one of these days, im gonna punch myself in the ribs for the last time..