Jaxiepoo's Journal

So, not last night but the night before i moved my bed against my wall, it has always been a certain way and i get used to something and if it changes just the slightest bit, i freak. like BIG panic attack. Thank Go di havent had one in a couple months. but when i moved my bed, a PA def. threatened me.. and i got through it. i just talked myself thru it, and last night, i slept in my bed. I didnt sleep thru the whole night, but i spelt in it, so im slowly overcoming my anxiety. And ive always been afraid of commintment and like working, well i now have a job that I absolutely love! The people i work with save my life!!! I am soo happy with the job and i actually want to get up and go in, to get out of this house and be with the people I love. Also, I finally got over this jackass of a boy. that is a long ass story, but if u really wanna hear about it, just message me, or im me on my AIM--- jxcoolest. So last year i hyperventalated on xmas eve, and here i am a year later, and got thru the most part on my own. no meds, counsiling, nothing. just me.