Journal Entry for April 18, 2009
April 18, 2009 7:38am
FragileMentality 
3:15pm, November 11, 2009
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About Me
FragileMentality
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About Me
I am often the life of the party, seem to be lots of peoples best friend on an emotional level too, am often upbeat and cracking jokes but thoughts of sucide regularly flow through my mind, hidden from the world! I am an ultra-rapid cycling Bipolar Type 2 so I suppose it's only natural to be like that! I'm very flamboiant too. I spend quite a lot of time on my own, which is when the darkness mostly comes....
I am often the life of the party, seem to be lots of peoples best friend on an emotional level too, am often upbeat and cracking jokes but thoughts of sucide regularly flow through my mind, hidden from the world! I am an ultra-rapid cycling Bipolar Type 2 so I suppose it's only natural to be like that! I'm very flamboiant too. I spend quite a lot of time on my own, which is when the darkness mostly comes....
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Interests
Martial arts, complementary therapy (I am a massage therapist!), lifting weights, current affairs, philosophy, cracking jokes...
Martial arts, complementary therapy (I am a massage therapist!), lifting weights, current affairs, philosophy,
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Recent Activity
Recently:
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2 hugs given, 1 hug received
Saturday
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FragileMentality gave DanieLou a little love 1:41pm
Loves you loads! 'N more! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx You are gorgeous and the best xx…
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FragileMentality gave Pulpit a hug 1:40pm
Love you and thinking of you always sweetheart. xxx…
November 13
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FragileMentality gave fuchiboo a moment of peace 3:47am
EZ dude!…
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FragileMentality gave DanieLou a kiss 3:47am
Kisses and cuddles! XXXXX Are yu in pain today?x…
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FragileMentality gave Wanttolovelifeagain a hug 3:46am
You still around my friend? Hugs for you!xx…
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Journal
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This entry is private
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Hugbook
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Hug
Hey babe! Love you bunches!!!!!!!!! Hope your having a good day!!!!!!!!!! MWA
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Little Love
Hey hun...I understand. Dont worry I will always be here for you. If you need to talk I am here. Dont worry about me hun. Hugs and kisses! xoxoxo
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Kiss
Hey hun whats going on?? I am always here for you!
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Miss You
Hey hun! I know it is shocking to see me on here.....but i couldnt help it....I miss ya hun! Thinking of you always! MWA! :-*
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Hug
I tried texting you a few times but my text wouldn't go through? I am doing ok. Spent 22 days with the flu but I am at the ending now. Love you lots xoxoxoxoxoxo
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
Well, been feeling the effects of this disorder since I was about 12 or so I think. Was'nt diagonsed until about a year and a half ago, after I had wrongly been diagonsed as depressed by my GP but went into 2 and a half years of induced hypomania, brought on by an SSRI & got into a pile of debt (25K) & a whole heep of random, insane trouble. Had some fun too though!I dont trust Docs now,only my very well informed opinion. I work F/time for the police but I am also a Holistic Massage Therapist.
Treatments
- Aromatherapy Working / Worked
- Always have my lavender and ylang ylang blend own blend on a burner in my room. Really REALLY helps my mood.
- Depakote Somewhat Helpful
- Not too sure if this works! But gone for working. Makes you fat, thats for sure! Went up to 2000mg 3 weeks but it really screwed me up, left me really confused and agitated. Had to take 3 weeks off work to get it out of my system. I had uped it from 1500mg and I am on that now.
- Lamictal Not Working
- Was on 100mgs. Made me hypomanic. Stopped this just in time!
- Seroquel Somewhat Helpful
- Now on 200mg extended release. the XR is much much better. Not so hungry, not putting on weight, not so tired as before when I took this. Stopping paranoia and anxiety for sure, but still not perfect.
Close Healthy Sex
FragileMentality hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Insomnia
I can't sleep! A mecial insomniac! I get around 4 hours a night or very frequently broken sleep. I have huge circles already, at my age!! I am BP so I'm told it's because of this.
Treatments
- Counting Sheep Not Working
- This did nothing for me.
- Lavender Somewhat Helpful
- Definately helps.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Relaxing music I use when perfomring massges does help a lot.
- Restoril Somewhat Helpful
- Works well but very addictive so I can't take it often. 20mg
- Valerian Not Working
- Found it usless.
- Lunesta Working / Worked
- Works well but cant take it often as it will loose its effect. 7.5mg
