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nikwin 
12:24am, March 14, 2009
after my initinal feelings of guilt, i'm feeling much better about having sex with my girl. i'm much happier, less frustrated & not constantly thinking about sex with her. the edge has been taken off. i can see now this is something i need. i need her. i'm gradually relaxing into the idea that this is something that could really benefit my marriage. i know that sounds crazy but my focus is back. i still need her friendship but the sexual feelings are less intense (for the moment). as for relaxing & fully enjoying the sex with my girl i'm sure that will happen. i need to move past this guilt i feel & accept this is something positive. hubby & i have spoken extensively about this & he agrees. this is something i need, it's not going to go away & as long as i'm open & honest with hubby & my girl it will be a postitive..
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Hooray! Nik, I think you have made a breakthrough. That is my sentiment as well, accepting that this is something I need, and it isn't going to go away. I think you will find that you will relax and feel better about the whole situation the more you make it through the accepting process. Good for you!!
JacobT