MitchG's Journal

Around June I get a text message; its from Daphne.....

She is asking for help; money.

Cera her cat is having trouble, and to no avail, I wired her some money. Five hundred dollars to be exact..

By the end of June we are chatting online again, talking. I managed to create a boundary only limited to text or chat. I really didnt want to begin talking to her again; not until I was emotionally ready.

Then we began to talk, on the phone. It was very civil. Then I planned a trip to Toronto.

I was in Toronto by July 2. We hung out; I stayed at her place. I even brought my new mountain bike. We cycled around Toronto together; reconciling.

Oh and let's not forget that I paid for her trip to Vancouver. She went to Vancouver for her High School Graduation.

We had began making plans again, for her to come out to Cali. We would talk on a regular basis. By August, I was laid off and she tells me:

"I really want to support you; but I don't know what to do with you anymore."

I felt like that was a stab in the chest..

And then she keeps bringing up the past. I told her to stop that she should let it go. She won't. She insists that I take Domestic Violence classes.

I remember now, that she assaulted me. She called Tarzana and tried digging up my file and records. Spoke with my counselor and didnt release my info, she also talked to my psyche to try to setup marriage counseling via conference call or internet.

I really don't see this relationship going anywhere. She continues to hold on to the past. She didnt bring it up when she needed help and yet has to offer me any. I am going to talk to my counselor about this Monday and will probably break the news to her soon.

She has been acting strangely close to when this happened. She had been using Ecstasy and Ketamine.