MitchG's Journal

The benefits of sobriety and recovery show.

My skin and vigor is back; I laugh, I feel, I deal....

Some days I am down but its ok. Its part of being.

You realize who is really on your side as well. Without the negativity in my life now it is much better.

I think about how easy it could be for me to cross the line and drink and use. I am reminded of how bad I used to feel after or the following day of using. Using, just messes with my emotions which I value greatly now.

I have a car now; my motorcycle blew up. I drive calmly, not like a raging L.A. maniac. As a matter of fact I'm kinda lazy now.

I have $$ all the time. I am just careful with how I spend nowadays. I don't worry about money much anymore.

I have enrolled in school now; Addiction Studies at Pierce College. I don't know where it will take me but I will see.

I think about my wife everyday. It hurts, but if she finds someone, I will be happy for her. I would love, more than anything, for her to be happy.

I think of calling her all the time, but I am afraid I would just open old wounds and hurt her and make her angry. I am a fool for threatening divorce. I should've never listened to my sister.

There will always be a place in my heart for Daphne.

I am about to graduate from Outpatient Treatment. I told my counselor that I am behind a couple of months. He said that it was OK for me to come by anytime to groups if I need it; just don't sign in. Alot of the counselors show there concern for me cuz I am usually quiet. I do get alot out of the groups, especiatlly the Healthy Relationships groups.

Although things had gone bad between my wife and I; I had needed this. I am too old now to be drinking and using the way I was. I have a pretty damn good head on my shoulders.

I took my parents out for Mother's Day; and my father for his birthday. We were like peas in a pod. My dad is cool with me as usual; I am grateful to have parents like that.

I am on my way down this awesome journey. It is neverending.

In two weeks I will have my 6 month chip. I don't plan on moving from here any time soon. I like doing what I am doing and so do others around me.