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ToSaveALife 
10:10am, October 25, 2009
So, summer is winding down, and I figure with the end of a summer will come a journal entry about my amazing summer and adventures I had, on here, and in real life.
I met some really amazing people on here, one of them I have really bonded with , Skyfaller, I want to thank her for being such an amazing friend, and a great workout buddy, I hope to continue our working out throughout the school year.
Throughout the summer, I really bonded with my best friends, and did not spend alot of time with my other friends, but thats alright. I do have one major concern however:
Theres this girl.. well she lives in California, and I live in NY, and it seems we have both fallen for eachother. How did I meet her? Through my best friend, Devin, who went to Cali, hooked up with her, then came back to NY, breaking with her. We met through Devin, and well, recently she has been at my side more and more, and she really gives me the love and support im looking for in my life. The issue is, we both really want to meet with eachother, and I just dont know what the heck to tell my parents.
Money must be a problem to get to Cali, I mean theres airplane tickets, they dont come cheap, but im waiting for my senior trip, im going to skip out on it and hopefully convince my Dad to send me to Cali for the two weeks during that time.. I hope I can work this all out, I just dont want to say anything yet, I feel like if I was told no, it would break me in half. So.. I dont quite know what else to do. My Dad generally supports me in everything, and he always gives me the money for whenever I need it, because I dont ask alot for things, so maybe just this once, I can really work things out?
I never thought id find myself falling in love again with someone so far away from me, I always saw long distance relationships as a pointless thing, but not this one, my hearts all in this one, and I just dont know what to do, for the girl, and for myself, I dont want either one of us hurt. Im remaining hopeful and I am hoping to develop a plan that can help me get to Cali.. Thanks for reading!! Any advice would be wonderful.
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I felt like just writing a journal entry on some of the good stuff thats been happening lately, its just to keep staying positive and up beat, also just a little introduction to my lifestyle I s'pose for anyone who was wondering what I do.
Well, I am a gamer. I stay up late every summer night and usually crash around 2-3AM and wake up near 11AM, Its my cycle for the summer. I like working out, gaming, and anime, as well as hanging with friends.
I own a Xbox360 and A Nintendo Wii as for this gen's systems, then I own from there on down, so I wont need a list as long as my arm haha. Uhm, I love gaming, I also love socializing, mostly with girls, I will be honest. I guess its because I just want a girl friend, so im always willing to meet new girls. Im not a pervert, just a nice guy whose a little lonely.. But anyways, I have two siblings, both younger than I , they can be difficult but I just deal with them and if I do stress, I work out! Its all under control haha. Its been cold in NY, cold and rainy, each summer night I would hear pitter-patter outside my window as the rain hammers down onto us, but its all good.
Leading to my next subject! I have S.A.D I didnt even mention it until a member on here talked about it and I was like jeeze I forgot, its so dominant in the winter months though haha. I still try to stay positive, you will probably never see me in a bad mood.
I have really met some nice people on here, and I really enjoy helping them and they help me, and its just such a great releif knowing I can count on people like that, so I want to thank everyone so far who has met me and talked to me, because you are all so nice and I want to continue building bonds with people.
I really dont have a purpose to be on this site besides helping people now. I was in an emotional jam at one point with a ex of mine, but its all water under the bridge.. So anyways, theres my insight for the night!
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wow, lol, thats the only words that came to my mind :P seems u are pretty active user here, and.. very cheerful lol. Just wanted to say 'keep on helping people' ^^
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Thankyou!! ^_^ Will do hehe.
Im just getting fed up with this summer and being around my family all the time..
My parents dont get along, and im always some how dragged into the shit pile between them. I want them to stop shouting so I just tell my Dad to do what he has to do and stop communicaiting with my mom, this has been ongoing for years..
Im just so fed up with everything.. All summer iv been shooting to get a girl friend, I get fucked over when I try to even do that, its either the girl jips me and teases me then says she doesnt want to date, or my best friend dates a girl I like, or the girl is taken the day I ask her out, im getting sick of it all..
Im an otpimist but im also just down right fed up, sometimes I wish I had power to rid this world of evil.. I just want to be understood and I dont even feel a connection of happiness, im always trying to be happy so reality doesnt hurt so much - but no matter what I do, im still single, and my parents fight, and it just puts me in a rotten mood..
Sorry for anyone who thinks im whining, I just am venting..
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I know how you feel, my parents are like that to, they get along from time to time, but they get in a lot of arguments too =/. Well, maybe you should stop looking for one, let them come to you. My best friend says that if you chase after love, it will flee, but if you wait calmly, it will come to you, but I'm sure that you'll find a girl soon, if you keep fishing, you will eventually catch a fish =3. It seems I understand how you feel, but then again, I may not. If you allow me to get to know you better, maybe then we can fully understand each other =], reality is a painful thing, but it needs us to be strong, and your going through it with your head held high. Many of us gave up on our lives already, but even though things don't turn out the way they do, you continue to do what you want, and search for what you want. I admire you for that. Being single gets lonely, but maybe your just not use to the fact of being single, eh? idk, I'm taking a guess =/, when my parents fight, I just sit there and monitor it or go into a different room and clean or something. But I know this is cliched, but I know things will get better for you, you'll find a gf soon, as for the parents fighting, maybe you can sit down and have a chat with them? or have you tried that already? And thats what this sight is for, venting, and it doesn't sound like you're whining, and you have listened to us, now its time for us to listen to you.
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Aw Thien thanks so much man, you provided a fantastic insight for me to continue being happy and moving on. Yeah I did give up searching, I am just going to wait it out ^_^; its just what I have to do. Well I had two relationships throughout my life and they were both bad experiences, but I dont need to get into that I am much over it, but yeah I just want someone who will treat me right but I cannot just keep running all over looking for love, so I will just wait.
Yeah I am thinking about leaving the room the next time they argue. Ohhh there is a history behind it all, a little fire chat with them will not stop the arguing, nothing will but a divorce lmao, but its alright, I am trying to stay optimistic about it all, I was just having a bad night. Thanks so much man ^_^;
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np =3
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Well...hmm...I think you should definitely explain the situation to your dad...Have a talk with him about what you are feeling and maybe you guys can work out a sort of compromise...Like if you do all your chores, he'll give you the money to go to Cali or something of that nature. If I think of anything else I'll let you know. Good luck sweetheart!
SkyFaller
Thankyou!! ^_^
ToSaveALife
i know u dont know me at all but i kinda stumbled on your page lol. love is rare when u find that one person that makes you happy keep them and dont ever let them go. esp when u suffer from depression its good to have that one person there that will always cheer you up. you have to fight for what you want and just go for it. dont chicken out like i did and let that one true love slip through your fingers. i did, i had the chance to tell my best guy friend i was in love with him but i was too chicken instead he went with some whore. i always regret never tellin him and never fighting for him. to this day im still in love with him. and when we hang out i cant help but the way he makes me feel. you'll see her eventually but at least your not in love with your best guy friend like me lol... :)
luvevery01