Journal Entry for December 4, 2008
December 4, 2008 10:19pm
I'm gonna clear up my head
I'm gonna get myself straight
I know it's never too late
To make a brand new start
I'm gonna kick down …
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About Me
October has been a crazy month so far.. I turned 40, found someone very special.. but all this has also brought back my bouts with anxiety, depression and insomnia. I've been fighting these for years, occasionally winning, but the struggle never seems to end.
October has been a crazy month so far.. I turned 40, found someone very special.. but all this has also brought back my bouts with anxiety, depression and insomnia. I've been fighting these for years, occasionally winning, but the struggle never seems to end.
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November 24th
November 24, 2008 7:18pm
Today just seemed to be one of those days. I have an electronic alarm clock because I hate having anything ticking near me when I'm trying to …
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November 18th
November 18, 2008 6:23pm
I haven't had many deep or distressed thoughts to put up in the journal the past few days. It's been very quiet since last week and this is a …
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November 14th
November 14, 2008 5:09pm
Last night I took a dose and a half of Imovane to try to get a good night's sleep, and I did. I woke up not long before my alarm went off, which …
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Addendum to the last addendum
November 13, 2008 7:41pm
I tried going back to bed after writing the journal entry this morning, but I just lay in bed and cried, and kept crying all through breakfast and a …
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oh man, I have definitely been there too. Sometimes I feel like I keep the feelings there all day by trying to fight them away...it's just so hard no to.
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Close Anxiety
I've had bouts of anxiety for years now, but especially bad the past couple of years. It's on and off, fortunately, but when it's on it's unbearable.
Close Insomnia
I've had insomnia for twenty years. Luckily, early on my doctor suggested Imovane, which has worked well since, for the most part.
Treatments
- Lunesta Working / Worked
- It works for me. I've been taking the same dose for years now. When I have anxiety issues, though, I have to increase the dose or I wake up too early. No really bad side effects.
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentIt's been five years now since I lost my mother. I did my best to take care of her for 12 years through bouts of cancer, heart problems and other health issues. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of her and miss her terribly.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Time Somewhat Helpful
Open Depression
I've experienced depression on and off for years. My current bout of anxiety due to relationship issues also has depression tagging along with it.
Treatments
- Lexapro Not Working
- The side effects were horrible. And when it did work, it felt as though my mind was clouded and I couldn't think.
- Prozac Not Working
- Same story, the side effects were so bad I couldn't stay on the drug.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- This was always the most effective treatment for me. However, my longtime psychiatrist shut down his practice last year, so I'm starting with a psychotherapist now.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
My psychiatrist told me I had PTSD after a panic attack last year. It was triggered by seeing an aunt in the hospital, after being a caregiver to my mother for 12 years. For the most part, I'm functional day to day.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- My previous psychiatrist shut down his practice last year. I'm starting again with a new psychotherapist.
