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kdiva07 
11:50am, December 5, 2008
Just an update. I'm glad I have stayed off the site for a few days,get a little perspective. I saw my therapist on the 26th and we discussed my visits to DS,journal,online friends,etc. He helps me to put things in perspective. I asked him if I was really BP and if I had BPD. He replied"what do you want to be?" Kind of a Zen way of answering a questions. I told him I wanted to be normal, or be the insurance queen,which is what my friends call me because I am so good at my job. So Alan said be normal or be the insurance queen. We also discussed how I am attracted to women,but have only made love to men and when I fantasize it is about men or being raped. He said that kind of proved that I am not bisexual. Instead, I probably just am attracted to fit,confident women because I want to be like them. So I have agreed to stop thinking sexually about women and just try to chill out for awhile and enjoy life as it comes. Enjoy my husband,enjoy the fact that he is alive and the cancer treatment is working,enjoy what sunshine comes our way here in CT. Life is Good.
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I really think you ought to have stayed off this site for even longer than you did before you started making fun of someone's avatar. I was going to take it down today, but because of your nasty comment, I am leaving it up a few more days.
EvelynJean3