HeatherLymes's Journal

I can and the wisdom to know the difference! Well, tonight was the first night I realized how different I am from my friends. I have been through hell and back with Lyme that I feel like I am deeper and have more depth than my friends. Maybe there was a reason for me going through all this but I strongly feel that I have become more spiritual. At first I remember hating GOD and wondering why he put me through all this hell. But then someone said that maybe God didnt cause lymes, but it happened and now all the people in your life are gifts from God to get better. I dunno. Sometimes I dont even know what I am talking about. But, I just pray that God continues to help me meet the right people and help me do the next best thing in life. And just now I am realizing that there are a ton of negative people around me. Negative in the sense that they have no idea how good they have it. People complain about the fact that they are single, or they gained weight. I guess it isnt until you lose your health, become practically homeless had it not been for your parents, cannot work, become agorophobic, have depersonalizaation when start to realize whats impoirtant in life and whats not. I am glad I finally know what is important. The most important thing that has gotten me through this was faith and hope. The opposite of faith was fear and that is what drove me these past few months. It was faith in something greater than myself, courage.