Journal

This may be my last entry,as I am moving out very soon,and will have no internet for a while.By the end of the month,I will be moved in with the love of my life....Lee. If he had his way,I would be already moved in! LOL Soon,honey...VERY SOON! The kids are treating me like crap....I know I mean nothing to them.Never mind the fact that I have been paying the basic bills...cleaning up after them all the time...taking care of the pets. They resent the fact they have had to get me to work...the job I hold onto to keep all the bills paid up! They accused me of stealing their food,when I buy my own.They have said so many things lately that have hurt me. Okay...so now your gonna be out on your own. Lets see if you can handle that. Oh...BTW...lets not forget what you stole from me,Ben. Lets not forget what you have been doing that could not only get you into huge trouble with your wife,but could also loose you your job!!

Okay...enough ranting. Soon I will be with my man....and we have so many wonderful things planned. Just last week we went to Atlantic City with my Sister and brother in law....what a wonderful time we all had!!!! I finally got to see the ocean! The Boardwalk was a blast...well,until I took a spill on the rain soaked wood and went down hard on my knee. LOL Lee and I hit the casino at Harras...where we were staying...and actually won over a hundred bucks. Not bad for my first time in such a place. The four of us have other fun things planned...once I am moved in with my man,it will be easier for us to find the time to do things that I never dreamed I would be doing. But the best thing of all,will be coming home from a stressful day at work,and finding my love waiting for me...taking me into his strong arms,and hugging the stuffing out of me!Then sitting down to one of his awesome home cooked meals. That man should have been a chef!  Well, got to get ready for another long day at work...then when I get home,I will pack up a few more boxes of my stuff. Its gonna be a tight fit...me and all my stuff finding room in that tiny apartment,but we will manage somehow. I have never been happier.

Stupid slider thing on my goal wont work...but its now at 100%  ;-)

I know I haven't updated in a while,but so much has happened in the last few months.And what it all boils down to,is that very soon,I will be starting a new life....a love filled,happier than I have ever been life! As soon as that perverted man I had to call a husband gets out of prison at the end of july,I am filing for divorce,leaving this dump I have had to call home,and I'm moving in with the true love of my life,Lee.Lee has been so supportive of me....so loving.He wants me to be in his life forever...as his wife! I never dared dream he would want this....and not only does he want this,he wants it as soon as possible! We are already saving up for some things we will need for our new home.Goodbye to this dump I have had to call home....good bye to a man who has made my life hell for far too many years.And goobye to being no more than a live in maid to my daughter and son in law. They are in for a rude awakening when they no longer have me around to clean up after them.Letely,they have been very rude and hurtful to me.And that hurts so much,because my daughter and I use to be so close. But she is turning into a copy of her husband. Lazy,sarcastic...just not the daughter I use to have.Maybe once they don't have me around to be their live in housekeeper,they will regret the hurtful way they have treated me.

But Lee has been so loving...so into making a wonderful future for the two of us.I could fill many pages with his words of hope and love.And he is already looking for a ring for me,because he wants us to me husband and wife as soon as possible.Or as he puts it"I lost you many years ago...I will never loose you again!"