OMG! where did that month go...This year is flying by...This time 19 yrs ago I moved into a hotel just down the road to me now...with my 2 week old baby girl...Who is very much not a baby now...
I was just remembering how I felt...All alone in the world...Just me & my baby...Sooo much has happened in that 19 yrs...& I can honestly say that it has been 80% heart ache...& 20% fantastic...The 20% is having my children...finding my true love...My soul mate...Marrying my soul mate...Finding spanking...Plus some other stuff thrown in lol...
The 80% crap was from other selfish ass hole jerks...Cos I/we allowed them to interfere with our lives...If I/we had lived our life as our selves it would have been 80% "Fantastic"...20% *uck off out of my life you scum bag...but we cant dwell on the past...Only learn from the past...
Hopefully my kids won't go through the same awful things...cos I have brought them up to "Not go there!"...They are amazing kids...totally unphased by most crap...& that is cos of how we are bringing them up...
My daughter Amy just said to me..."Mum can I read your diary?"..."Eeeek!" "Shit" "What diary does she mean???"...
"Phew!" she meant one of my old fashioned before computers & "Blogger" many note book diary's...I started writing diary's in the hotel with Jade...& carried on right the way through to Ryan being born...He is now 12...
Unfortunately all the heart ache & AWFUL crap stuff is writen in my diary's as well...I said to her..."No...There is a lot of horrible stuff about Grandad O in there"...
Hmmm!...I will not go there with the harm that man caused...
Then my daughter said..."You should write a book based on your diary's"...Ummm!...Where did that come from...
Yeah may be I should write my life story...
I started writing my life story here...but stopped just as it was going to start getting more difficult...
I'm not sure I want my children to know everything though...
I should be thinking happy positive thoughts...not dwelling on the past...
Gotta go...I need coffee....................................................................
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"I can't change what happened...but I can make sure our future is a LOT better..." couldn't agree more ***HUGS*** Take care and blessings.
Ellocin
I never knew how bad my grandparents treated my mom until a few years ago. And she's had to deal with them to make my dad happy. I am thankful my parents raised me the right way like you are doing for your children!
SueGal