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emptyluck
Female, 33, NY
"Trying to avoid the casino don't want to ruin 4 mths"
10:40am, February 27, 2009
Nov. 7th Mood
Friday, November 7, 2008
Okay, A new Day once again.  This time I cannot go to the casino as I am now officially Banned from all NYS casinos.  A big relief because now I can start keeping my money. I now have time to work on this addiction. I don't think I have gone more than 2 weeks without gambling in 3 years. That is huge. I cannot believe it has been that long.  I think Quitting smoking woke me up to it all as it just got quadruple worse. I know it is a problem and I am going to take one day at a time. Regardless of what happens now I know my finances will be better as there is no way I could gamble such a sum like that anymore.  I never did online casinos and never will even consider even looking, out of question.  The ultimate scam. Okay so now I am going to work on making some money today, back the way I was . I want that so bad. But without a cigarette seems so hard. I am going to look into being Addicted to Addictions. I think that is my problem. I must run to addictions and need them to function, Why?? I just don't know.
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  1. Motley

    Congratulations on your self ban. It is funny how such a simple thing can make us feel so much better and feel 'yes we can' make it. I wish I would have heard about the self ban option years ago. 15 years of throwing my money away is just not good. My self ban will be in the form of moving out of WA that has indian casinos everywhere to CA where I don't even care to find any type of casino. I will be off line for about a week with my move I hope all goes well for you. I am good because today I did not gamble. Hang in there with your smoking. I smoke and wish I had the strength to quit. I was told by a couple people the medication Chantax (not sure about spelling) was a wonderful help in there journey to quit smoking. Maybe you can talk with your doctor about it.


    Motley

  2. regretfulone

    Congratulations on banning yourself from the local casinos. That is a HUGE step and you should be proud of yourself for making that decision! I have been reading some of your other posts and I'm sorry to hear that your hubby wasn't entirely supportive, but I know what that's like, because my family was the same way - they just didn't understand the addiction. In most cases, our families love and care about us, but don't understand our addictive personalities. Unfortunatley I can get addicted to most things that I like. lol I like you, felt that this is one of the only places where I could talk to people who really do understand what we go through as compulsive gamblers. I made the same choice a few years ago to ban myself from the local casino that was only 5 mins away from my house and I can honestly say that it was one of the best things I have ever done for myself! The temptation was just too strong and I knew that it was the only way that I would really be able to distance myself for good. I did the lifetime ban, so I can never go back to that casino, but I really don't think I will ever miss it. I know how hard it is in the beginning, but you are absolutely right about the fact that your finances will improve significantly as a result of your decision! Just rememeber that you did this for yourself and stay strong because things will get easier for you over time! :) Your story reminds me of myself in so many ways because I too was losing large sums of money when I would gamble. Not just a couple hundred here or there, but usually thousands at a time... it was sick! After banning myself, it became easier to focus on my job and make money to get back on my feet. I recently relapsed and lost about $3000 in one day, but thankfully have been able to stay away since then and now I have been working harder than ever to make back the money I lost. Thank goodness for sales bonuses... :) I don't know what you do for a living, but it sounds similar to my career, where at least you can earn more the harder you work and it definitely makes it easier to focus on work when you are gamble free! It can be an everyday struggle because it's easy to think that when you have a large sum of money in your hands that you can just gamble with a few hundered and be OK. I know what that's like, because I almost always felt that way when I walked in... I always had a "limit" but I always convinced myself that I could just play with a few hundred more if I lost that initial "limit" but then the hundreds would turn into thousands and I would go home broke. Anyway, I wish you much luck on your quit and hope things get easier for you over time. You are never alone in this and I'm always around if you need someone to talk to! :)


    regretfulone

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