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riplakish 
3:59pm, October 11, 2009
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Well Y'all this is my last first as a widower, the first anniversary ( don't feel like it's that, for damn sure) of the loss of my precious Cindy. In this last year I've lost 2 homes, a mother, and a lot of tears. I've also gained a lot too!! My dear friends on DS, a great many frinds in this area, i'm learning who Brian is w/out Cindy, & most importantly; I'm learning who God is again.
I'm finished w/ my classes and on the hunt for work. I'm living in the Salvation Army Shelter for now, but have made some good friends there. I'm in NA & finding out how to live "one day @ a time". So I'll end this journal the same way I started the first one, w/ a love note to Cindy.
MY DARLING CYNTHIA,
A YEAR AGO YOU LEFT ME TO START ON YOUR JOUIRNEY FOR ETERNITY. IT HAS BEEN ONE OF THE HARDEST THINGS I'VE EVER HAD TO FACE. LIVING DAY TO DAY TO DAY KNOWING I'D NEVER HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS AGAIN. LET ALONE THE BEAUTY OF YOUR FACE, SMILE, OR TWINKLE IN YOUR EYES AS YOU LAUGHED. KNOW THIS, THE TIME WE HAD TOGETHER, THOUGH WAY TOO SHORT, WERE THE HAPPIEST OF MY LIFE. I HAVE THE PEACE OF KNOWING WHERE YOU ARE, AND ONE DAY WE WILL BE TOGETHER, FOR ALL ETERNITY. IT'S HARD PUTTING THE THINGS INTO WORDS WE COULD SAY TO ONE ANOTHER W/ JUST A GLANCE. IN CLOSING, KNOW I LOVED YOU W/ EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING.
FOR ALL ETERNITY,
I WILL ALWAYS BE,
YOUR LOVING HUSBAND,
BRIAN
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(((BRIAN)))
LisaACOA
What a wonderful dedication to your wife. I wish this weren't so hard for any of us. Blessings to you.
Beab
Brian, you made it! You sound like a very strong person, and Cindy helped make you who you are today. I have 2 months to go to make my first year, and I hope I will be that strong. You are an inspiration to us all. Thank you for sharing, and best of luck. laurabp
laurabp
very sweet brian.... it touched my heart....
michellerobin
Hi Brian,
I really had to wipe the tears away from my eyes, after two months out I can only imagine at this point what 1 year might feel like. Eternity, something most never even real imagine as well. I'll be praying for you Brian, and I know that God is going to bless you, keep the faith, and never let go of the hope. For you see, hope that we can have in our hand is really not hope at all. But HOPE for what we do not have, always wait for it patiently.
God's Best,
Stan
stand1moretime
Very beautiful. Hope things get better and better for you. Peace, Kip.
KipB
Brian,
The letter to your wife was filled with so much love, I'm sure that Cynthia felt every bit of it in Heaven.
Bless you for making it this far...Love, Mo
wizmo
Your letter was beautiful. I'm afraid of reaching one year because I still don't want to believe this is real. Something about a year makes it seem so real and I don't want that. I'm sure your wife has heard your letter and is waiting for you. Take care.
tebin
Beautifully moving. It brought tears to my eyes from the beginning. It's my husband's birthday this month,a first, and the first anniversary of his passing next month, so your words certainly touch me. It's so incredible that it has already been a year, and yet, such a long time at the same time.
Best of luck with the job hunt. Many hugs from Sil
SilFa
Very sweet and true!
Phil 4:13
Christine
sadheart56
I am left without words, Brian. I do not go on here too much at this point, but I wanted to let you know I am here for you if you need it. My year will be in March. Take care
Mike
MikeGF
Brian,
What a beautiful way to honor your wife and your love for her. This brought tears to my eyes. My prayers are with you.
Diana
missmyhero
such a beautiful letter it will be one year dec 19 for me so much has happened still miss him desparetely still dont know how everyone can do this
gmk49