BaBeeGhurl's Journal

Volunteering  at the Lighthouse for the Blind today. Something to get me out of the house. It worked. Anxiety creeps in when I am in unfamiliar surroundings. Guess that's normal, but I don't like it. It makes me twitchy. Sometimes, people seem nice at the onset, but their true colors come forth fairly quickly. I see, to notice control issues quite a bit in others. That's probably because I'm controlling, too.  Subtley, but still controlling.I've started knitting a new scarf--sort of a crimson/cranberry color. One day after work, I was sure that would make me happy--to have a red scarf. I am making it in a checkerboard pattern. Looks nice so far.

After I leave here, I'm not sure where I'll go. It seems I am always shopping for food, though. I want to go eat something, but not sure whether or not that's nerves or real hunger.  I started the day off with lots of hope and happy feelings.  The Lighthouse is not new to me--I started volunteering to read for their blind radio broadcast years ago, in hopes of gaining experience to fulfill my dream of doing voiceovers.  Went as far as taking a class in voice talent, but never made a demo. I had one actual job doing voice work for a former friend's husband. The job went well, but what ensued afterwards did not.  

I may go home and take a nap. I may go to the store beforehand and buy ingredients for lemon poppy seed cake, which was a hit with my son, his friend, and my neighbor last week.  Might also make Pastor Ryan's Mexican Lasagne, which is time-consuming, but very worth the effort!  My time for volunteering is drawing to a close...