BaBeeGhurl's Journal

Tomorrow is the first day of school. I'm a little scared. I want to be able to go to school and not have any slip-ups. Last year wasn't such a good eyar for school. I kept dropping classes. Earned one "F". This year, I hope to be better at school. Just keeping my mind focussed and not letting my 'real life' get in the way of what I dream for myself. Weight loss and more credits that will one day transfer to a 4-year college. Music/Social Work double major (?) with a Health minor (?)...still unclear about my specific direction, but hopeful that it will come together in the end. Excited about the 10k walk/run coming up in June. I know by then I will have lost a significant amount of weight. I will feel better about myself in the world. My sleep will be better and my skin will have improved from the working out. My health conditions will have imporved, too. My blood sugar will be more in control as will my high blood pressure. I will have met nice people who are like-minded about health. I will have also met a group of people who like to go out occassionally and have fun together. Non-judgemental people! Accepting of theirselves and of their friends.  Forgiving and compassionate. As I write these words, I realize that I will need to become like that I wish to minifest in my life. I want to journal every day and read the Bible every day as well. Take care of myself as second nature instead of looking at basic care and maintenance as an unwelcomed chore. Love myself., forgive myself, be compassionate towards myself--I can then bring these qualities into my world and share them with others.