hanson080108's Journal

As I am sitting here trying to think positive, I'm being positive thinking about my first goal being completed.  Carl and I made it through the first trimester of our pregnancy.  So far all is well.  I still have fear and am somewhat untrusting when I go to the doctors.  It's hard because with my pregnancy with Colin everytime we went to the doctors they constantly said things were fine, so hearing it now is kind of like hearing empty, meaningless words.  I get really excited for the first day or two after my doctors appointments then my fear begins to quickly set back in.  I keep trying to not have these negative thoughts and am really trying to think positive.  I'm thankful that we have made it this far.  I'm starting to get a bit of attachement, but I just wish I could have that pregnancy innocence that I had last time with Colin.  Rip baby boy, mommy and daddy miss you lots!  We think about you daily.  Please Lord and Colin, I pray that you both help watch over me and this new child growing inside.  Please help us to bring home a living and healthy child in our arms!