i bleed
October 6, 2009 5:24am
i cut myself today, it's comforting to watch myself bleed, to feel the warm of the razor going accross my skin, things improve because of the …
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JoeOldfield
5:17am, October 6, 2009
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About Me
JoeOldfield
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About Me
i'm 28, short with brown hair, blue eyes, i like to grow a beard. i have a guinea pig Sebastian who is my little boy and he makes my heart smile. i am a perminant wheelchair user due to living with Cerebral Palsy, i'm gay and i am a female to male transexual (ftm)
i'm 28, short with brown hair, blue eyes, i like to grow a beard. i have a guinea pig Sebastian who is my little boy and he makes my heart smile. i am a perminant wheelchair user due to living with Cerebral Palsy, i'm gay and i am a female to male transexual (ftm)
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Interests
guinea pigs, computers, tv programs, the cinema i love, DVD's, Vampires, sci fi,
guinea pigs, computers, tv programs, the cinema i love, DVD's, Vampires, sci fi,
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things wil improve
June 26, 2009 6:41pm
i finally had counselling Tuesday, it actually made me feel worse cause of bringing up stuff.. and the lady is not sure who i need to see for further …
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gay/lesbian movies and stuff
May 18, 2009 12:27am
so i've been downloading a lot of gay/lesbian movies, i know i know i'm a very naughty boy, but my spending habits lately have me raiding my …
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filling a hole, general stuff.. good and bad
April 5, 2009 11:13pm
Ok guys, i'm off my meds, but i do have a genuine reason for not taking them other than being pissed with the way they affect me, i'm having …
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hi honey, i'm home (part 1)
February 25, 2009 10:46pm
I’ve been home about 14 hours now, it’s late and I’m tired, but at least I’m not currently in pain! I am so glad to be …
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
Treatments
Close Gambling Addiction & Recovery
gambling on slot machines was something a grew up with, my mum would spend entire holidays in the arcade.. But i'm disabled and not very socially active, so when i started with the slot machines it was just to pass the time.. Until i would spend an entire weeks money on them, and even when i win i don't stop, and even when i win i want to go back, as you can imagine i'm worse when i lose.. i am better when on medication for my mental health but that is not the whole story.
Open Cerebral Palsy
i'm 28 amd i'm a perminant wheelchair user due to a lack of balance, my mobility has worsenned with age and a lot of my CP/muscle related issues seem to be internal. i have never worked unaided
Treatments
- Heel Cord Lengthening Working / Worked
- this was done when i was 4 i think to stop me from walking on my toes, it worked quite well
- Baclofen Considering
- i take 10mg 3 times a day im not sure if it helps or not
Open Codependency
Ok our situation is slightly different because i physically have care needs, but we have been a couple and in many way we still are, we are both at fault and we both need help and this situation is not healthy
Treatments
- Pets Not Working
- she is jealous of my guinea pig and uses him against me, she treats him like her pet when she wants to but when he needs something or something goes wrong with him he's mine. He has become just another form of control
Open Self-Injury
i started as a kid biting myself to deal with stress, that progressed to hitting myself in the head (in times of a heightenned emmotional state) then i started cutting to feel somehing when meds made me numb or when i had the need to release something that i couldn't get out. i don't cut deep because it has been about just feeling something but somehow seeing blood and having marks makes me feel even better. i haven't talked to anyone about this but people close to me have seen it well some
Open Transgender
i'm ftm been on T for 9.5 years, had my chest improved but not sorted, not sure about anything further.
Open Migraine Headaches
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Somewhat Helpful
- works sometimes. i'm a caffine free guy that helps
Open Schizophrenia
my sister is schizophrenic and i do have some simptoms
Treatments
- Abilify Working / Worked
- only started a week ago
