Journal

Well its been nearly 2 weeks now and i'm feeling good. I've been using Celebrity Slim meal replacement shakes and following their diet. My biggest problem is that I sometimes run out of time and go for the quick and easy option. Having the shakes handy means there are no excuses, it takes 2 seconds to prepare. I used to snack on chocolate and coke at work in the afternoon because i didn't have time for lunch, i don't even feel like it now. I've also just joined Curves so i'm looking forward to seeing the results there. One of my closest friends joined with me so that will help me to stay motivated. I've only had 2 workouts but i'm enjoying it so far. Its nice to have that 30mins to myself.

Well today was a much better day, I took Josh shopping and he didn't have a meltdown. yay. He seems to be coping with things much better in the last couple of days. I've stopped his B12 cream cos i have a feeling this may be affecting him negatively. Will have to wait and see. So far so good. Its hard with the biomedical stuff cos lots of it is trial and error. ABA went really well too, I am trying to introduce new foods by putting real strawberries and grapes in with his picnic set. He wasn't impressed but did give a grape to cookie monster and used his fork to transport them from the container to a plate. He also fed his therapist. Anyway, off to bed. Feeling really exhausted for some reason. Hopefully an early night will do me some good.

Its funny cos 99% of the time i'm the most positive person and am really happy with my life, but every now and then i had a hard time dealing with Josh's Autism and it takes all my effort not to cry. At swimming tonight I found myself comparing him to the other autistic kids and wishing he could talk like one of them or behave like the other. Unfortunately we can't pick and choose, we have to play the cards we're dealt. I'm not sure what more i can do, i'm close to a lot of the other parents and their children are doing the same therapies as what we are.