shannonc111's Journal

So as I sit here and type I am feeling the strong kicks of this baby growing inside me. Everyday is a miracle in itself but having something grow inside of you that has your blood running through it is beyond my highest expectations. This baby gets stronger everyday and shows me by making my belly dance. It is the coolest thing I have ever experienced in my life. I feel so blessed to be able to live this. This pregnancy seems to good to be true at times. I was looking at my calendar and Friday the 30th marks one year since I had my egg retrieval last year. It was such a hopeful time in our lives followed by such disappointment. This time of year for the last 2 years was filled with such sorrow and I wasn't looking forward to the holidays or seeing anybody. What a change this year is! I find myself so eager to see people and show off this beautiful baby inside me. I now have something fun and enjoyable to talk about and not feel as though I want to hide in my house. I some times feel that I can't even put into words how happy I am and how blessed I am, words just don't seem to be enough! I can't believe I have been pregnant for half a year and have only 4 short months to go. I try and envision what it is going to be like to see my baby for the first time but I know it wont even come close to how it will be in the end, cause that's how this pregnancy is. For so long I tried and tried to think of what it was going to be like to have this baby inside of me but everyday my reality surpasses my dream. I feel like I know this soul already and have been through so much together yet I still wonder what our next journey together will entail. I love this baby more then I ever thought possible and I look forward to the day to be able to share this love that is overflowing in my heart.

 

Shannon