leopardfreak's Journal

i am thinking i have more obsesive behaviors then i thought ... i check lights . items i think i may hafe forgotten check multiple times for doors locking , when i enter hom even 4 in the morning even after i take mail out already i alway check mail box as im entering my home .

i have many thoughts about death randomly becoming worse and its starting to involve friends and thoughts and most are bad why must i think so pestimistic insted of optimistic.... hmmmmm i wounder 

i want to think normal what is the normal way of thinking these days