leopardfreak's Journal

bad thoughts that just wont go away   people are getting me thing for x mas i told them no ... just to leave it be ... maybe i should be extrem screwge and not even open any thing ... i want people to skip me just once just once i wanna be a nobody .... invisible to my family ...

i dont know if i wanted it for how many years ... that im most get my wish but people need to stop messing with it to it can be complete... \

or if its from my depresion im thinking like this .....

i wounder if i should go back on my aunti depressants for another month or so ,,, seems like all i wanna do is cut and cry

i hate living so much right now , my wish from santa would be to get hit by a semi asap or wind up flipping my car into a ditch and my car killing me ... i dunno something