Journal

life is going ok i got some things in order. its two years since my uncle and my friend past away and well im deffintly doing alot better then i did when that happend couple months apart all i wanted then to do was to join them almost did , but my love for parents came alil more then i wanted to die now im working hard working on getting outa debt witch actually isnt to bad .

 i have a great man , weather it lasts or not im gunna stick with what he helped me wanna do , im just gunna do it weather i like it or not just so im doing somthing with mylife so im not usless .

i hope he stays in my life but i can only take it one day at a time and hope things work out i plan on going to school again and so on make family alil more up there insted of my friends 100% all the time 

hopfully things will keep going the way there going because its so far good

i dont know what im doing anymore , i dont know who to believe , who to trust , my friends tell me one thing and a guy im seeing me something different , my friends only a couple dont want me seeing this man , but my best friend told me he hasnt seen me happier

these friends dont relize becauseof there actions, is forcing me to quite my job , i found a job i like and enjoy but now im forced to leave it because my friends are targetting the guy i am seeing ,

better explention is i gess well the man i am seeing happens to be my boss, and my  friends i work with and there trying to get him fired i dont know what to tell him or what if he trys to go backto his ex , i am sure shes not gunna take him back , well and hell loose me , 

i dont know what to do ???????

i wanna die so bad right now this is all my fault i want to end the stupedness