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leopardfreak 
every day i have thoughts on why am i doing this theres no point any more and really there isnt all i wanna do is cut aself and watch my bleed , last night i was thinking i wounder what it would be like being stabed , maybe i could get stabed some how be in the hopsital for it and get outa worki dont know what i wanna do with my life any more , i wish 2012 will happen so i can get outa life i want out so bad i have a man who love me but im gunna reck it i know i am im paranoid im not good enough he likesour friend whom has a relationship already but i hear shes not happy cuz hes lazy , and i dunno i told him a joke she made and he was all like oh really like is wasy for real , i should just leave him, i know he wouldnt fight for me no one would , im almost pritty good for getting ride of all my friends so maybe the last few can be good and i can maybe one day die
not th at i really would but thoughts are very tempting
wanting to cut , wanting the pain to disappear , wanting to face death as most people are wanting to see it come near , how do we live day by day and for what heart break , friendships crashing , to earn papper that some how made an importance for value why do we or numbers in a bank account , we struggle every day with all of this , and in the end i just go home wash the horrible day off me and go to sleep then get up and do it all over again , when will the world end so i dont have to be a slave to these ways any more
hating on life . wanting to die , whats the point any more . i live at my bfs place but hes not more then five minutes from my moms , where my dog is , i work so much i dont even have time to see her i dont even have the time to see the the man or his dog i live with whats wrong with this picture i work two jobs but one is the problem needing to get rid of it like no tomorrow but i caint i work for a friend and shes strugling right now . i wanna cut but i caint risk loosing my bf im in tears daily for no reason i hate this why caint the world just end like really end all ready so eceryone whos suffering could just stop
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