LuminousValentine's Journal

I was at my massage school tonight, and very uncomfortable and feeling ill. it was hot in there, and my baby wasnt helping with the comfort of my stomach.
One of the gilrs that works there, asked if had any maternity clothes. I told her no and she asked why. I told her.
Im cheap and I have no money- which is very true- pluss if i'm not shopping for my daughter, i HATE clothes shopping.

later on in class, it was time to practice massage on eachother, and since i wasnt physically "fit" sort of ...my teacher said i was neither to do or recieve massage. and the girl that helps out with school told me I was to go with her for an arrened.
I was confused but I wanted to do something, so maybe helping out in school would be a good way.
then i noticed we were going a little far, and heading to the new walmart and I asked her "do you need to pick something up?" and she said "kinda, only...i dont need anything, this trip is for you."
I got quiet. and just stared at her.
she said. " you need clothes that dont hurt you...yeah you only have a few months left, but you should be able to do that comfortably."
i told her "please dont, ...dont do that." and started crying- i really didnt want her to feel bad for me. I was kind of proud of the fact i was using a rubber band for my jeans and nOT spending money on clothes that I'll only wear for 4 months.

and she told me i needed to stop crying, in a playful way.

I felt so guilty and so lost when we walked in. there were no maternity clothes
which i was kind of happy for because they're twice as expensive than normal clothing.

She got me a winter jacket ( i have none of those which fit me noo)
nice danskin sweat pants, normal sweats , 2 long sleeve XL shirts.
a pack of sports bras, underwear, and socks.

I feel really guilty about it...but I'm really appreciate the fact that she did what she did ...

I would really like to pay her back somehow. dont know what. but I'll figure it out.