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Hi all!! Have not been on to much as my Med doctor put me on Klonopin which knocks me for s loop. My husband is still very emotionally abusive to me. He thinks that he is Mr.right and that every one else is wrong, For now I hope to write again reel soon Plase if you have faith please pray for my mother in law as she is 82 yrears old and a very sick lady.After she leaves the hospital she will be going to hospice. I also have an aunt that is quite sick her self,right now she is in the hospital ventulated, things don't look good got her either. Lots and lots of prayers are needed Thanks for all the prayers as we need them so much Hugzzz everyone Rainey
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I feel like my life is on a roller coaster, up and down up and down. Husband wants me to go off my meds , I tried that for 5 days and ended up feeling like crap.
The worst part of this was the nightmares were horrid. Then I just could not stop shaking and I could not think clearly.
I ended up calling crises intervention and they advised me to go back to taking my meds. So now I'm back to taking them.
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oh honey...you will have alot of sides when you try and get off meds. You have to do that with professional help..inpatient..not sure good idea..dont listen to him....he knows not what is best..I love and think of you everyday...havent been good myself..sorry I havent been here please know you are always in my heart!
Okay, I'm going to move back in with my husband, please don't think I'm crazy It's been about 4 weeks that I've been away and feel that the longer I stay away the more I'm damaging our relationship. I have to admit this is not something that is going to be easy to do but find it necessary. I told my thearpist today and she kind of himed and hod about the idea. After all it seems as though things are okay for a short while and then I get very suicidal. I know this sounds stupid but I feel like I'm so dependant on him and that I can't do without him.
Well I guess I'll try to do this again and only wish that he would go to marriage counceling which I think would be helpful to both of us.
Until.....
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Well, I wish you luck. Maybe if you could just go to therapy on your own to try and understand why you are so codependent on him? Do you think you are afraid to be happy or don't know? I think sometimes that could be my problem. I am so use to just being unhappy, that you just don't know any other way.
This relationship seems so tortuous to you, are you sure this is the right choice? The longer you stay away, probably the more your mood will lift, and you might see that it is the best thing to stay away.
((((Hugs)))) Joely.
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Thank you for your comment as I did move back to my family. To be quite honest with you I already think it's a mistake and shoukd have stayed away.
My husband is already showing his colors and it has not even been 24hrs that I moved back with him. Atleast I do know that I can go back to my parents if need be so that makes me feel like I have a safety net.
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Just be safe
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sweetheart many years of spousal abuse makes you dependent..that is the ugly part of abuse. I know because I live it...he made you dependent on him by years of putting you down, yelling at you and the rest. How i wish i could change things for you...xoxoxoxox just know I am always here for you and that your life is worth living...you are just living in a kinda bubble that makes you feel hopeless...wanna run away with me? I'll take good care of you!!! xoxoxoxox friends forever....Serenity55
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I can relate as well Rainy , even though mine is just about an angel. there is abuse there lots of controll in my situation mine is a silent abuse and im telling you im scared to leave im stuck, and feeling of guilt on many levels if i left..but here i am ..still with him 3 y later ummm...
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Praying for you and your family! Big hugs from SC...Lesa
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