Join Now
azuregris 
i take a look at my marriage and i wonder what's the use? there is no love there and both of us know it. nine years of fighting and anxiety and frustration. why struggle to keep it together- it doesn't even feel worth it. i am the walking dead- no feelings other than cold and lonliness. try to communicate but all he does is shut me out. why should i feel guilt over wanting someone who acctually wants me and cares for me. if we didn't have children than i could walk away and not feel as bad but the children are here and i love them with all that i am. who am i fooling even if the kids were not here i'd stay because i am unable to cope with the judgement passed by others. our life is an illusion. everyone believes that he is a wonderful husband because that is the way i let them percieve it. in reality he is a wonderful father. in reality when it comes to me he is selfish and cold. still i feel guilt. what is done is done. can't change it. can't justify it. don't wan't to think about it.
Comments
For sure the kids know what happening even if you think they do not. Life is short and it is not to late to be happy. Is he willing to go to a marriage counselor? If not you go to a counselor ! Then ask yourself the question are you better off with him or without him? If better off without him then get the heck out of there. It will be hard at first but you will find your self image will improve and you will find happiness.
good luck and God bless.............. :-)
elainebr
i might be young and my advise might be crappy.. i also dnt kno if u are religous and i dnt wanna push it on to u.. but trust in god jus hand him ur problems and have faith tht he will help you. but once u give them to him u cant take them bak.
JoShUaLuM
PRAYING FOR YOU SWEETIE!!MAY GOD BLESS YOU & YOU FIND THE JOY & LOVE THAT YOU TRULY DESERVE!!! I'M SO SORRY THAT YOUR HAVING TO ENDURE SO MUCH PAIN......... BIG HUGS OF COMFORT!!! MUCH LOVE, THERESA
Theresa42266