SAMPAGUITA's Journal

I forgave myself from all the wrong things that I’ve done. I wanted to move forward from now on. Despite of all the negative things that I have encountered. Past is past and this is a new day. I am now putting all the negative stuff behind and I am shifting my focus not with the past but in the NOW. This is all about progress. I wanted to have a change in lifestyle. A balanced and healthy lifestyle. I lifestyle not necess arily free of unwise decisions or sins—but a lifestyle with God in it. I am under construction, I am honest and open. I admit that I still am anxious and fearful of what lies ahead but I know that if im on the boat with Jesus, then it will not sink. I promise to do my best in this battle of life. I won’t let my unwise attitude run my life. This is my life and I deserve to live. I deserve to enjoy my life. In any circumstances, negative or positive, I will try my best to seek God’s love in it. I know that he loves me, that he cares for me and if only I will remain faithful to him then I will be able to seek heaven here on earth. I will be able to live my life the way God wanted me to be. And for that I shall be truly happy and satisfied.

  I have to realize that it is not food that hurts my feelings, but it is the desperation for acceptance, love and praise. I am opening my heart to God in order for him to heal all the wounds and pain in it. I hope that God will send a light on my distorted thinking. Because it is the one hindering me from getting what I wanted in this life.

My body is a temple. It is given by God, and there for I should take care of it. Without it I will not be able to live. I am meant to be here. . God is healing me now. I am a work in progress. I should not base my self esteem or self image on the “shoulds” of the media. I am beautiful just the way I am ..and even if I don’t feel it right now, someday, I will.