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featherme65 
I have come to a point in my life that I need to define what happiness is to me. My life has changed and so I must change my outlook. I have been on disability for six years, I'm young on the inside - in spirit and thought - it's just my body isn't keeping up! My children are grown, 4 of them ages 36, 34, 32, and 29. My grandchildren are 18, 10, 5 , 4, and 5 months. My two sons live out of state. My two daughters live locally. My three oldest grandchildren grew up in this house.
My husband has a parttime job six days a week from nine-thirty to three-thirty. He does the laundry and dishes, doesn't like taking vacations, and sleeps a lot after supper. There isn't much communication that's fun. There sn't any fighting, there just isn't much of anything. We have seperate bedrooms since my foot surgery in April. We both like it. He's upstairs and I'm on ground level. We go to different churches on different days - we are both Christians so we have that in common. We've been marrried 38 years. In the past six years my life has changed from teaching elementary school to being home full time, having my daughter and her daughter live here until last year, going from crutches to a power chair in the house. I've been chasing doctors trying to get a diagnosis. I have one - small fiber neuropathy, but that doesn't cover all of it.
I need to find a definition for happiness at ths stage of my life since the old one doesn't fit any more. I'm happiest now when I'm at church. I like listening to worship music. Getting closer to my Source of strength is my goal. Living a life that is pleasing to Him would be a happy thing to me.
My oldest grandson just called and asked me to pray for him - that's happiness! I can see a plan coming together! I must get ready for my three hour round trip to my PCP. It's a great drive and I listen to my worship music. The scenery is awesome - a beautiful valley surrounded by mountains and then going through the mountains.
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