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rbm 
10:15pm
SO, celebrated my fourth with shot 11. I didn't even cook this holiday...picked up ribs from our local ribjoint.
did my shot early, didn't feel anything. Watched the fireworks from our front yard, watched a movie and went to bed.
Woke up around two this afternoon........I couldn't believe that! Feels like I have a hangover, today. Just tired (as usaual) and kind of sick. Thats it. I'll sit around all day, and watch another movie, and let my devouted husband, take care of me. Oh, yes, he's upstairs cleaning up the kitchen.
Sometimes I feel like no matter how much I sleep, I don't feel well rested! I MISS THAT FEELING! WAKING UP AND FEELING READY TO GO.! Yep, I can feel this medicine taking a toll on me. It's so frustrating, not being in my usual routine. I did not drive this week! Not one time. Tim took me to the dr's Wed's and went out to eat. Wow, did that feel good to GO OUT.
I really, really, miss having energy. I miss my morning walks, (I tried, and had to walk so slow, and kept getting so dizzy, that it's safer for me to sit on my ass at home.)
I just can't wait for this to be OVER....so I can live my life again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's going by so slow!
Ok, I am going to quit bellyachin.....and be grateful, my sides are not worse. I feel for you all that have them much worse than me and have to go longer. I have NO RIGHT TO COMPLAIN!
Water is so important, I did not drink much last week or today, and I'M FEELING IT.
Hang in there, friends....you will make it through this....we've started, let's just keep on going.....
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I here you say you shouldn't complain and others have it worse, but HELL you still got feelings to deal with and need to. What we are going thru sucks. It's ok to feel bad for yourself just don't stay there forever. Try going out for little jaunts, makes a world of difference. I was out last night til headache hit. Headache gone today but a little down too..........Oh well,,,,,,,,,,,,take care ;c)
jkbearhug
You have every right to complain. Don't say that! This medicine does seem to take a toll on everyone but you always have a great attitude. I really admire that. I always felt no matter how much I slept I still felt tired too. It's a shitty feeling!
You got to watch fireworks right from your front yard? That's great!!! Keeping hanging in there girl!
MandL1347
Yes, some neighbors down the road, had a small fireworks display, and some more neighbors...I watched theres. lol Thanks you all, for your support...
rbm
you will get your energy back two months after tx
Barb99999999
Well, maybe you have no right to complain, but we sure do! What has happened to the old rbm that we've all grown to know & love? I can see a big change in you in the last few weeks. I thought tx was supposed to get easier after the 8th or 9th week, but it is really starting to drag you down. I'm a little worried!! So, yeah, you do have a right to complain!!
WingedHorse
Please, vent all you wish! This is the safe place to do it.
ptriss
Aww I know how you feel! There were so many weeks that I would sleep alot and never feel rested. Hope you feel better soon! You're almost done lucky!
AndNicole
I know, you all know what I'm going through! Knowing that, makes this easier to live with.
One other thing I've noticed, that on shot night, I keep waking myself up, because I've taken a chomp out of my tongue. Pretty much through this whole deal. Why does that happen?
rbm
rbm....you complain all you want!!! Thats what we are here for. Let that hubby wait on you hand and foot, rest, watch funny TV, eat and drink lots of water. Its a tough road to hoe, but will be worth it in the long run.
Those ribs sounded wonderful, made my mouth water when I read that.
debbear
FINE !! bitch a little or bitch alot , it doesn't change a thing ! IT IS WHAT IT IS and you can't change it ! But venting is good for us ! But please don't start beliving that you are being unreasonable. Keep a positive "tude" Keep laughing, keep active somehow, keep a normal routine (get up and go walk around house,outside) get up at the same time, go to bed at the same time, take naps if needed . STAY POSITIVE !!! YOU ARE HALFWAY THERE !!
johnnykat
rbm... Your 4th sounded a lot like mine did except I slept through all the fireworks in the neighborhood. I didn't cook either. I hope your feeling better today. Yesterday I slept from 11:30 a.m. til 7:30 this morning, and today is a pretty good day for me. Love the pics of teh strawberries...
shadedblue
half way through...good for you....wishing the rest of your treatment flies by with energy hopefully maintaining....i agree with debbear...complaining and venting is good for us all....i so far have had little to complain about....
twinkat
RBM I know you'll make it through. These tx's are the pits. But remember they are working and you'll be off soon enough.
Are your blood counts done too low? (or just low enough to drain you) Check with your Dr. ok.
Patmh