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HELLO, HELLO, I'VE BEEN TRYING TO GET A GRIP ON EVERTHING AND THOUGHT I WAS DOING OK! THEN THE OTHER DAY, SATURDAY, I TOOK MY DOGS DOWN TO THE NEARBY SCHOOL (S). IT IS HUGE AND NOBODY WAS AROUND, UNUSUAL, AT LEAST SOME KIDS ARE PLAYING BALL, NOTHING. SO I WALKED MY DOGS AROUND AND THEY ARE SO GOOD! IT'S THE FIRST TIME THEY WERE OUT OF THE HOUSE ALL WEEK.
THEN THE CAR PULLS UP WITH THE SECURITY GUARD, AND I JUST SAID TO MYSELF "PLEASE GOD NOT NOW BECAUSE I'M GOING TO LOOSE IT" AND DID! EVEN BEFORE HE COULD SAY ANYTHING I RIPPED HIM ANOTHER ASSHOLE. I COMPLETELY LOST IT, TOLD HIM TO GET A REAL JOB, MY DOGS WERE DOING NOTHING TO THE COMMUNITY EXCEPT BE A PART OF IT. I TOLD HIM TO GET A REAL JOB! HE SAID "THIS IS MY JOB" SO I TOLD HIM WITH MY FINGER IN HIS FACE THAT HE SHOULD DO SOMETHING USEFUL WITH HIS JOB AND STOP THE NONSENSE.
MY POINT OF ALL OF THIS, IS, I LOST IT, AND I NEVER, NOT EVER DID THAT BEFORE, I THINK I WOULD HAVE KILLED HIM IF HE WENT ANY FURTHER, I TOLD HIM, WRITE IT UP, CALL THE COPS, DON'T CARE.
HE TOOK FROM ME EVERY BIT OF PEACE I HAD. AND IT WAS HARD TO COME BY THIS WEEK! I TRULEY LOST IT! WASN'T AFRAID, I WOULD HAVE LITERALLLY KILLED THE BASTARD, JUST I NEVER LOST IT SO BAD BEFORE IN MY WHOLE LIFE. AND THEN AFTER I JUST WANTED TO CRY! WTF? I'M WRITING THIS BECAUSE I NEVER FELT THAT OUT OF CONTROL BEFORE AND IT'S BOTHERING ME. I DID VOW I WILL NEVER DO IT AGAIN. PLEASE SEND FEEDBACK! LOVE YOU ALL!!
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I got like that today and all because I dropped my sandwich, chips and radishes on my lap, in bed! And, yes, then I cried. I am experiencing perimenopause, r u?
ROCKSTARBUNNY
oh donna ,sorry hun ive only just caught up with you here.my eldest daughter had an op for fibroids (another of one of lifes endurances for us females!!!)riend ,is you ARE most definately nOt alone!!menopause??could be.i know it reduces me to a weeping wreck ,and my temper gives out at the slightest agravation ,and this was totally uncalled for!!walking a well behaved dog ,not disturbing anybody ,heck!!when the hell will they go do what the public pays taxes for ,like catch criminals that beat up old ladies ,or thugs mugging anyone they take a dislike to.
I have lost it badly like this before.like you i kind of scared myself ,let alone the neighbour i lost it with.
she committed the ultimate sin ,attacking my daughter with no provacation at all.so what did mum do??yep ,mum ripped into her ,rather like a bull to a red rag!!we all do it donna ,try not to beat yourself up ,you are under emense stress right now ,and i think it was only a matter of time before you exploded under the unfairness of it all.
hope your feeling slightly calmer now ,dont fret ,its over and done now.know im here for you ,always mf ,take care ,love and hugs ,sharon xoxoxoxoxox
Rocky7
it could be menopause and all the stress you have gone through.
That can take its toll on the body and mind.Hope you are feeling better and take care darlin.....(hugs)
RainyDey
hey D,
maybe you screamed at this jerk for all of us who have never been able to that..kinda like a collective conscious scream, lol.
just a thought..love you so much!
xo
moonstar
Your right moonstar, it's for all of us!
dkay