Journal

I am thankful for the people on daily strength who help keep me grounded and keep my problems in adequate perspective.  I am going through perimenopause, I have had ulcers and GERD, IBS and PTSD and anemia.  There are people like me, going though what I'm going through and it helps put my problems in perspective.  I don't have the worst thing happening, I don't have the best.  

I worry about the long term ramifications of taking prilosec, but I have to live in the now, and make my world liveable for now.  I can't survive without medicine.  This is non-negotiable.

I hope that I don't end up with osteoperosis or osteo arthritis from the Prilosec.  I hope that I don't have long term nerve damage from the Prilosec.  I have to eat right, try to exercise and push through the anxiety.   Anxiety is a part of all of it, I'm certain.  To not be alone in my life is a godsend, I hope I can help anyone who is doing all of this alone.

Good luck, good karma and find peace any way you can.  I'm trying, that's all I can say.- 

I am having more hot flashes and insomnia despite everything I am doing (exercise, deep breathing, freshly ground flax seed, no alcohol nor other foods/drinks that cause badness) and am getting a lot less sleep than usual.

Is is a coincidence that the holidays are coming and I'm tense and having more GERD and anxiety symptoms?  I was sailing along until about the 5th of November.  

Oh well.  I just keep taking the prilosec and I do my best to wear myself out during the day and then have a good book waiting for me when I hop into bed.  If the dry eye symptoms aren't too bad I can read at night and that's good. 

THREE days without much sleep.  I am having hot flashes combined with skin "hallucinations" and itching, flash headaches and irregular heart beating along with instant panic attacks.

I constantly worry that the symptoms are made worse or even mostly caused by the medications I'm on for GERD, allergies and anxiety.  The Lorazepam did NOTHING to bring sleep to me for the last three days.  Tension over work.

I am going to get fresher flax seed and grind it in a coffee mill and take the prescribed dose (4 TBs) a day for a while.

Also I'm going to cut out the wine to see if it is adding to the symptoms.

I hope I don't have to give up coffee again.  Jesus.  I'm spent.