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pleinbe 
11:32am, April 14, 2009
im so lost. i dont know what to do. i hurt so bad still, although i know a lot of people are still dealing with pain i just want it to be over. im way to young for this. i cant drop out of school, what will i do? i cant get behind and lose money. i have to be out again this week and i am afraid my advisor is going to tell me my options are limited. i will do anything to stay in school. i am willing to work my butt off. im trying not to feel sorry for myself but i am just at a complete loss. i just want to be numb and not feel anything. i can tell my parents want me to take a semester off, but that is the last thing i want to do. i miss school. i miss my roommates. im alone everyday here because my parents have to work and i know that. i just have too much time to think. im trying to stay upbeat but its not going so hot.
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awww hun - u have the right to feel sorry for yourself after all you have been through recently...i feel sorry for myself still, and i've been recovering from this for the past 6 and a half months! You are suddenly been catapulted into an unknown, and very scary world...i totally understand why you are feeling like this, and sympathise! When i fell ill, i was at uni training to be a teacher...because of the PEs, i had to leave the course and was absolutely gutted...but i had to think of myself, health is the most important thing in the world! so i spoke to the uni, and they agreed that i could go back to the course either in 2009 or 2010. Basically whenever i feel ready! talk to your college, im sure they will be so understanding! i know it is hard that you have been thrown into a situation that you really don't want to be in, but you need to get yourself better first, and then continue your studies...i'm sure your college will be so understanding and you will be able to go back when your fighting fit! stay strong, i know it is sooooo hard....none of us want to be in this situation, but sadly we all are...but through it all, we will become stronger people, ready for anything life throws at us! xxx
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thanks loveheart. you sound like such a strong person! in envy you
pleinbe
awww honey - i don't feel very strong, i promise you..and if i sound it, its take nearly 7 months to get there! just keep your chin up if you can, u will get there i promise you! x
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