not a mother
May 24, 2009 6:47pm
Just picked up my pain patch from Kaiser. The entire place was crawling with pregnant women. I'm exaggerating only slightly.... …
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painangel
8:59pm, May 4, 2009
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About Me
painangel
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About Me
I look at the beauty that surrounds me and I can't be part of it. This pain is eating me alive.... slowly. My body turned against me long ago, 9 years to be exact and before that, my mind was my own worst enemy. Will I ever have a normal life? How, when my chronic pain assults me from all sides, every second of everyday. Is anyone out there, anyone listening? I really wanted to make friends on DS but that hasn't worked out so good. Don't be shy about sending me an email. I want to make connections with people so I don't feel so isolated.....
I look at the beauty that surrounds me and I can't be part of it. This pain is eating me alive.... slowly. My body turned against me long ago, 9 years to be exact and before that, my mind was my own worst enemy. Will I ever have a normal life? How, when my chronic pain assults me from all sides, every second of everyday. Is anyone out there, anyone listening? I really wanted to make friends on DS but that hasn't worked out so good. Don't be shy about sending me an email. I want to make connections
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music, writing, poetry
music, writing, poetry
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weight loss goal!!!!
May 3, 2009 10:50pm
Yeah!!!! I am 1 pound away from my goal. I'm on a gluten free diet which has helped, but most of all, I've cut out ALL …
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I love to write, so why don't I do it more?
April 15, 2009 11:57pm
Oh yes, because my mother reads all my shit and it pisses the hell out of me. It is terribly windy but a lovely day nonetheless. I'm …
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Journal Entry for April 1, 2009
April 1, 2009 7:48pm
I'm such an idiot, I don't know how I get confused, but my goal updates are just journal entries. Anyways, I use to be thin, 90 …
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Black
March 29, 2009 3:40pm
all the in between days, where I live in a sort of limbo, waiting for that black rig to take me away, take me home, it is my only purpose. And …
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Ray of Sunshine
hi sweetie, hope that you are doing well...I miss ya, and hope that things in your life are going okay...as for me, I am doing okay, thanks sweetie. Love ya lots and hope you know that you are always in my thoughts & prayers sweetie. You are an excellent friend of mine hun!!!!
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I didn't think I could answer all your questions, especially questions that are as deep and difficult as those. But I've thought so much about all of them and I have so much to say (whether what I have to say is right or wrong is a whole different matter) As for thinking of death as female, maybe I just think of her as a lover. so if you think of death that way, perhaps you're a lesbian. hope you're doing well. blunt
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No thanks needed, and yes we'll chat soon =)
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There's so much to respond to in your hug and I'm sure I won't get to all of it. You raise big questions about how could a good God allow the kind of suffering you're going through, questions about how seriously a believer should take the Bible, questions about whether more than one religion can be true, and what to think about gays and lesbians (since almost all traditional religions tend to frown upon them). lol . . .and now that I've said all that, I have no idea where to start.
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Close Chronic Pain
I have been in chronic pain for 8 years. I have been diagnosed with TMJ, myofascial pain, subluxation of my C1 and C2 and fibromyalgia. My worse pain is in my jaw, neck ,and shoulders, although the pain at times is body wide.
Treatments
- Chiropractic Adjustment Working / Worked
- I see an upper cervical chiropractor and it has done wonders. It has taken 8 months and I still have a lot of healing to do but when I hold an adjustment I feel SO much better. It helps my body temperature regulate, nasa, anxiety/rapid heart rate, and of course my neck pain.
- Heat Somewhat Helpful
- Lidoderm Somewhat Helpful
- Helps a bit with my neck pain
- Lyrica Considering
- Meditation Working / Worked
- It helps me to try and relax my jaw muscles since they are in constant spasms.
- Methadone Working / Worked
- It does help with the pain but it is not as effective as when I first started.
- Oxycodone Working / Worked
- I take it for break through pain and it helps take the edge off of the pain.
- Physical Therapy Working / Worked
- I have made many attempts at PT. Most made me worse. You have to find the right one. Currently I found someone to do myofascial release. It is to soon to tell, but I know I'm in the right place..... instead of lifting weights and going at a pace to fast for me....It is gentle stretching and strengthing, slow and relaxing--great for MY conditions.
- TENS Not Working
- Really had no effect on the pain.
