lanie516's Journal

We had to put our beloved cat Patti to sleep on Friday.  She wasn't eating or drinking no matter what I tried and she was so weak.  I kept watching her and she was not in obvious distress and I was torn about what to do.  I just didn't want her to be suffering.  Her eyes were opened but she could hardly see anymore. She didn't purr with her loud motor when I petted her and she barely made a sound. I'm not sure if she could hear me either.  She was just lying down with her head to the side.  I had been putting off the call for about two months now as I watched her deteriorate. It was so painful to call the vet because I knew i wouldn't be bringing her home.

When the vet saw her he said it's time to let her go.  I was uncontrollable.  They asked if I wanted to stay in the room but I couldn't.  My husband did.  I feel weak that I couldn't be with her in those last minutes.  I just couldn't do it.  So I said my good-bye, kissed her on top of her head and told her I loved her.

I had found her on the street about 15 years ago.  She had given a loud meow and didn't hesitate to let me pick her up. I put her in my car with the window open while I took a college class.  She was so good.  She didn't pee or poop in the car for over 2 hours.  I remember taking her to the vet the next day and she just let me hold her in my arms like a baby. People remarked how close she was to me and couldn't believe I only had found her the day before.  Where did those years go? 

I still have a cat Leroy who is also up there in years but still acts like a kitten.  I have my older dog Keira who is 10 and Brady who is 7.  I dread the day their time will come.

Only those who love their pets like family can understand the feeling of losing one.   If there is a pet heaven I pray that my beautiful little girl is there now and at peace.