Seabee17's Journal

*sigh* today. What can I say about today? I got up decently on time (yay!!), got to work at a decent time (yay!!). I checked my bank like I do everyday, looking at how much is in the account, if any money snuck out overnight like it tends to do (money talks, but it always tell me goodbye). I looked through my web bill pay and sadly saw once again I really don't have that much money to cover ALL the bills when they're due. I've been working on not being stressed about money, I began tithing again at a church I've been attending for the past few months. I'm trying to let God be in control. Its definitely scary, but I trust that everything will be how it needs to be at the right time.

Soon after I was looking through all the bank stuff I went to the gas station. I wasn't stressed about the bills, just down because its sad to see that you're making money but not even enough to cover everything when you need it. After I put the pump in the tank I looked over and noticed a pack of something lying on the ground next to the trash can. I thought, "SOMEONE LITTERED. UGH." I picked it up to toss it. I noticed that this pack of gum still had the wrapper on it, that it hadn't been opened yet. I believe this was a sign. A sign from God that he's still there and heres a small token to remember not to fret about things. So I've enjoyed fresh cinnamon breath all day!!

Work was fine, helped a co-worker most of the day then I did a pretty large intersection. Marked about 8 lines, about 900 feet or so. Like I said, pretty big intersection. Anyway, it was pretty and I was happy.

What wasn't pretty was getting an email from my supervisor that a bill collector had called the office. I called the number back and spoke with a Ms. Peterson. She was a pleasant lady to be dealing with delinquint accounts.....anyway, we talked about things going on, she was giving me advice and trying to explain why Emily probably left. I tried to change the subject then she called me out on it. It was a weird conversation honestly. Well, she made an offer to defer my Dec and Jan payments that weren't made if I make the November payment tomorrow when I get paid. *sigh* which means my house payment thats due today STILL wont get paid, because I won't have the money still. Arg. Well, at least someone is working with me and wasn't threatening to take my truck away. What sucks is that my doing this HELPS Emily......it doesn't punish her in any way other than her credit. Her name is on this loan as well as mine. We pulled a loan against my truck (that was paid off....I'm so dumb) to pay off my 2 motorcycles. She was off work so she got the titles to the bikes in her name...........guess whos name was on the bikes when she left? Hers. guess who has the bikes? her. Guess who's screwed with the loan? Me. So I have a loan on my truck and she has 2 motorcycles free and clear AND DOESNT EVEN KNOW HOW TO RIDE THEM!!!! Anyway, I'd be more than willing to pay half the loan payment every month, but she's being a B word and says "no."

OH........the plot thickens.....so I may have mentioned that there was a screw up with my phone bill/payment and my phone was cut off. I swear theres a black cloud over my head raining on me. ATT wants me to FAX my proof of payment. I go to my parents to print the images of the check out and then realize that I can't get the fax to work. I call my stepdad who was at work. He says the computer is stupid and it doesn't fax anymore. WHAT?!?!?!?! He tells me to run over to Publix. UGH, this is exactly what I DIDNT want to do. SOOOO, I went to Publix..............and paid $2.67 to FAX the stupid paper in. I mean GEEZ.

I went home, started making macaroni and cheese, my fave. *sigh* I forgot that I was making it and burned the noodles to the bottom of the pot. I mean wow I shoud have stayed home.

There were some good things to my day though: I made a phone call to medical at the base to find out the status of my waiver I'm waiting on so I can go on this deployment (no answer back though....). I also called my counselor/consultant person I've been talking with about my problems and left her a message so I hope she gets back to me soon. AND......the fax went through to ATT so I better have some phone tomorrow before Dish Network starts charging me for not being able to do nightly updates using the phone line. My life is....wow.