suzannettc's Journal

I am 16 weeks today and we told my mom today. She is flat of her back in the hospital recuperating from knee surgery but it was time to tell her. My girls are all going to be here tomorrow (together the first time in 4 months) and I really want/need to tell them but I felt I needed to tell my mom first. You know we all anticipate reactions and my anticipation of people’s reactions to anything is usually negative, just because of all the “stupid” things people said to me after Newt died…..BUT, her reaction was golden. She said, “Yea!” and pumped her arms in the air. She was truly excited and all along I thought she would react negatively or with an over abundance of worry (which might still come out). I am glad to have this milestone behind me and so looking forward to telling the girls tomorrow! Their reactions are going to be of pure excitement! I guess in writing this all down, I realize that I worry too much, I expect people to react negatively to everything and I am thinking all my fears are going to be everyone else’s fears, too. I full well expect my mom to worry, worry, and worry. But I am glad of her initial excitement…AND she did ask if we knew what we were having and asked if we would be disappointed if it not another boy. I think I handled her question appropriately…hopefully I will get more and more prepared for those kinds of questions.