VestaRan's Journal

 I binged today for hopefully the last time. I am aware that my inserting that "hopefully" is a bad thing, but I hate to dissapoint myself, so am always prepared for failure.

 My heart is palpitating and my waist has expanded some 5 inches since this morning. I am greedy and out of control. I eat everything in my line of vision. I am so sick of this, and I am going to end it as of NOW.

  I want to be back to my normal, healthy weight of 110 lbs by December 1st.

  Reasons:

  1) My physical health is dwindling due to my excessive consumption of poisonous "food".

  2) I look like crap. My skin is sagging and my hair is brittle and I appear to be as sick as I really am.

  3) I am past the age where my body can handle this abuse.

  4) I can't model or work anymore.

   Affirmation: As I shed this skin (that is this chapter in my life ending) I will shed my fat.